Cant Let go (Janoskians)

Chapter 18: is it really over?

*Luke's B pov*

"It's your fault she's not with you anymore so stop fucking laying around acting all sad" Beau said pushing me out of the way "BEAU FUCK YOU I SAID SORRY DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO NOT HAVE HER HERE WITH HER, I DON'T I FUCKED UP AND IF I COULD I WOULD TAKE IT ALL BACK BUT ICANT I MADE A MISTAKE I LOVE HER BRO I CAN'T LOOSE HER" I yelled and a fear tears fell "maybe its time to let her go" Beau said patting me on the back and walked away leaving me with my thoughts, I couldn't help but cry knowing the fact I lost her.

*Caitlin's pov*

"Where is everyone" I asked sitting on the couch, "they went out" Ashton replied "Caitlin, you know we need to talk about what you did" He added turning to me. I signed and looked at him, "you promised you wouldn't" he said looking at me in disappointment "ik and I'm sorry but you don't understand I needed to" I said "I so understand I have been through the same thing, I also had trouble with self harm" he admin it I couldn't let Ashton do that to himself ever again i looked into his eyes and started crying he pulled me into his chest, "please never hurt yourself again" I whispered into his chest "Caitlin, I'm done with it that was my past" he said I pulled away and looked at him he slowly started to lean in until our lips met, fireworks went of it felt so right kissing Ashton it was like we were meant to be but one thing and one thing only popped into my head and that was the one the only Luke Brooks. I pulled away from the kiss and looked at Ashton in shock at what we just did "I'm so sorry" he said "don't be sorry you weren't the only one Ash" I laughed slightly "I'm just not ready to move on yet" I added he nodded and went on his phone. I heard my phone go off so I went to my bunk and picked it up *1 new message from Karenna* I signed and walked back to the couch and opens the message

From Karenna: I know I shouldn't have done what I did and I'm sorry for it, I was a horrible friend to you to go behind your back and cheat with Luke I understood why you were so mad at me I would have felt the same way but when you said our friendship was over I felt like you really meant it I had to leave I came back to La because I though it would be better that way for me for you and for the boys, the truth is, I started having feelings for Luke I'm sorry but I couldn't help it I didn't know how to tell you and Luke didn't know I had feelings for him and it wasn't Luke's fault for what we did I'm the one who made the move not him, don't be mad at him it was me not him. anyway what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry for ruining our friendship I wish we could go back to the way we were but unfortunately we can't. I'm sorry. Love Karenna.

"What" I said lightly in shock "what" Ashton asked I gave him my phone and let him read it as I sat there thinking about what she said she had feelings for Luke how did I not see this is that why her and Jai ended what they had? did Jai know she liked Luke? Ashton gave me my phone and asked what I was going to do. "I don't know, I know that what Karenna said really did change a lot but then again I don't think differently about Luke he still could have pulled away from her he never stopped her until I walked in, I don't know if I can take him back, I just.. right now I don't think I ever will" I said getting quieter by the last part, "then don't, he doesn't deserve you Caitlin you deserve to be happy and if he makes you cry then he isn't the right guy for you" Ashton said leaning down in front of me so he was eye level. i smiled at Ashton and grabbed his hand "where are we going" he groaned "i don't know let's go do something" I smiled he laughed at me as we ran down the road after a hour of messing around and annoying people we looked at where we were and had no idea "were lost he said "we aren't lost we are just somewhere new" I said "so were lost" he said looking at me I signed and asked someone for directions back to the hotel and as nice as they were they helped us, no we aren't staying in a hotel we are staying in the tour bus but the bus is beside a hotel. As we were walking back I felt my phone vibrate I pulled it out of my pocket and it was a text from Luke B I looked at Ashton and he told me to open it I did what he said and the message said