Cant Let go (Janoskians)

Chapter 22: Parties

*Caitlin's pov*

I pushed open the hospital doors and ran down the hall "Caitlin you can't go in yet" Jai said standing up grabbing my arm "LET GO OF ME" I yelled "its gonna be fine" He said hugging me "What happened to him" I asked as tears ran down my face, Jai explained everything that happened and turns out Luke had a girlfriend that was really bitchy and she started saying things about me and Luke couldn't take what she was saying so got in the car and left "its my fault Jai" I said leaning my head on his shoulder "no it's not dont say that" he said looking at me in shock "Jai just think if me and Luke never broke up this wouldn't have happened" I signed "Caitlin things happen, you can't control them" he said standing up, just as he stood up Beau, James, Daniel and Emily came around the corner Daniel and Emily came walking over to me and gave me a hug "What is she doing here" Beau groaned "Listen I'm not here for you and your bullshit, I'm here to see if Luke's okay" I said raising my voice he shook head and mumbled something that I couldn't hear "are you all here for Mr, Luke Brooks" a women about mid 40's said with a clipboard in her hand we all nodded, "I'm sorry to tell you this but he's in a coma" she said "How long with that last" I asked standing up "these type of things can happen for a long time, he could wake up in the next hour or he could wake up in 3 months possibly longer" she said to all of us "no" I whispered "you can see him but go in a couple people at a time" she said softly walking away, the first people to go we're Beau, Jai and James then everyone else went after that lastly it was Me and Ashton who went in I walked in slowly and saw Luke's lifeless body laying there I walked over and took his hand he was cold "hi Luke" I whispered, seeing Luke like this broke me into pieces, I looked at our hand and started to cry Ashton came and wrapped his arms around me "he'll be okay" he whispered, before walking out of the room I gave Luke one more look "Ash I think I might stay here the night with Luke" I said turning to him "ill stay with you" he said taking my hand "no you go get sleep" I said "are you sure" he replied I nodded and gave him a kiss, I watched as he left the hospital, everyone else left 5 minuets ago I walked back to Luke's rooms and opened the door and shut it behind me, I turned around and jumped, standing In front of me was Jai and Beau "what are you doing here" Beau asked for the 2 time tonight "I Uhm well I wanted to stay here with Luke" I said quietly "doesn't Ashton have a problem with that" he said I shook my head at beau and sat in a chair closest to Luke's bed "Caitlin, Honestly what the fuck do you want why are you here" Beau said getting annoyed "Beau fuck off leave her alone" Jai said as he sat beside me "Beau I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you hate me, I really am but I need to be here for Luke we may have gotten off on the wrong foot but that doesn't mean I don't care about him" I said, Beau just ignored me and looked away........I woke up and check the time 4am I sat up and walked over to Luke bed and sat beside him "I really wish you could hear me Luke, I want to be able to tell you I miss you the boys hate me Beau hates me and I understand its my fault your like this I shouldn't have broken up with you, I should have stayed with you, I should have stayed on the tour you made one little mistake and I took it as your broke my heart, Luke everything is ruined I really hate myself for what I have done, when we dated I self harmed I should have told you but I couldn't bring myself to hurt you like that but knowing how badly I truly hurt you and the boys it's horrible, I I love you Luke" I said sobbing the last part I felt a pair of arms wrap around me as I turned around I saw it was Beau I didn't even know he was awake, "I'm sorry beau" I said as I continued to sob "shhh" he said rubbing my back as I calmed down I pulled away "did you really mean what you said" he asked looking at me all I could do was nod "so you admit you still love Luke" he asked "yes" I said softly as I said yes more tears came down my face, Me and Beau caught up with each other about everything we have missed out on. i pulled out my phone and check the time 8:26am "Caitlin?" Beau said "yeah" I asked "what are you gonna do about Ashton" he asked "Beau, I don't know I'm so caught up in all this and so confused about the whole situation, of course I love Ashton, but I can't help but feel something for Luke" I said as I heard the door close I turned around and saw Luke, Michael, Calum and Ashton standing there "Ashton" I gasped, his eyes filled up with tears and turned around walking out the door, I quickly got up and chased after him "ASHTON" I yelled as we made it out side "what" he said turning around "I'm sorry" I said "your always sorry aren't you" he said raising his voice "When were you going to tell me you still loved Luke" "Ashton, I I don't know I'm so caught up in all this bullshit I can't loose him, he could die Ash I loved him" I said as tears ran down my face "clearly you still do" he said walking away "But I love you" I mumbled quietly, I watched as Ashton walked away and it broke my heart. I couldn't do it anymore I walked to the park where me and 5SOS first met and walked to a tree I sat under it, I put my headphones on blasting my music and closed my eyes thinking about everything, and when I say everything I mean everything. I love Ashton, I love Luke, I don't know maybe my feelings for Luke are not true there just here because he's in a coma and could possibly die. I didn't realize how long I was sitting here until I check the time and saw I have been here for 4 hours I had 8 miss calls 1 from Emily, 3 from Jai, 4 from Beau. I dialled Beaus number and put it to my ear