(1D) Saw ; The Beginning

(1) Chapter Three ; Back to the Box .

Liam Payne ;

It was quiet. Haz and I stayed awake just to let the others recuperate, but in reality, neither of us had the courage to sleep- or at least I didn't. Every time I closed my eyes I could see nothing but the pain I had caused.

I almost killed them. I squeezed Niall more snuggly in my arms, gently kissing him on the top of his head.

   

   "I'm so sorry...." I murmured rocking him back and fourth. I felt like such a monster.

     Haz looked over at me, concern engraved in his face. "Are you okay?"

   "Yeah... I'm fine..." I shook my tears. "I'm just glad everyone's okay-"

   

I couldn't even look at Harry, not without feeling the guilty pang twisting in my gut. I almost killed him, only to save myself. What kind of a brother was I? If I could go back I thought of the million different ways I could've done it differently, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't change it.

   

  "What are you we gonna do Li?" Harry mumbled trying to keep it together. I could hear the faint cracks in his voice, and it only made me hurt inside. "Clearly this isn't over, but look at us?"

   

I looked over at Zayn and Louis who were out on the floor; Niall snuggled peacefully in my arms.

   

   "And even if we decide to keep playing, where would we even go?" Haz rambled to himself now. "There's only four doors in this room I've checked. And we all came from them. There's no other way out-"

  "You don't know that for sure" I replied, somehow finding it in me to stay positive. "We need to find something."

   "Li come on!" he scoffed, weak voice in his throat. "If this person really had any intentions of letting us live, we wouldn't have to do these things to ourselves-"

  "Don't you dare give up on me!" I clinched my teeth, holding Niall just a little bit tighter. Harry was all I had right now, and I needed him. "On us...."

  

He started to cry, as if he weren't already.

   

   "I-I just don't know what to do Li..." he cracked, falling apart. "Why us??"

He stole the thought right from my mind. Why did they pick us? Whoever they were, why us? 

  "I-is this just some, sck twisted joke??" Haz went on cursing at the wind. "Or-or some overly obsessed creep? How could they do this to us?? What have we done Li??"

   

I could see the crazy forming in Harry's eyes. A gleam I've never seen before. It was haunting, but I could slowly see him changing right before me.

  

  "Listen to me!" I raised my voice, taking his attention. "We're going to make it out of here, alright?? I j-just, I need you to stay strong-"

   

Not even I believed that, but for Harry's sake, I kept it together. I couldn't bare the thought of losing any of them, even if it felt like I were going to.

   

  He sniffled before nodding. "I-I can do that...."

   "Good" I smiled vaguely. I gently placed Niall on the floor to help Haz. "Now come on, let's look for a way out."