(1D) Saw ; The Beginning

(9) Chapter Four ; In Too Deep .

Harry Styles ; 

I lifted my head out of my chest as locks of my hair dangled in my face. I winced at the odd sensation I felt around my neck. Immediately my eyes sprung open, remembering where I was. I gulped as I felt the metal around my throat, crying as I tried to pull it off of me. It was no use. When did I fall asleep? 

   

  "Shit, shit, shit..." I panicked, already paranoid from being in a similar situation. "Not again... Fuck! Please no...."

   "Haz-"

  I froze. "L-Lou??"

   

The room was dark, but I could recognize Louis voice anywhere. I continued pulling on the metal around my neck hoping it would do something. I can't go through this again. I started pulling on my hair, losing my mind. There were two thin cables connected to this thing and they seemed to run into the wall behind me. I tried leaning forward but the cables were locked into place. They wouldn't budge.

   

   "Lou-" I cried on my hands and knees. "I-I can't go through this... Not again...."

  "Hey, it's gonna be okay alright??" his voice filled the room. He sounded a lot better. What happened? "Listen to me, we'll get through this, together-"

  "Y-you're better?" I said more like a question.

   "Yeah, thank you" he said with a shaky voice. "Wh-whatever you guys did it worked-"

  I scratched my head. "Lou we, didn't do anything. We honestly thought you weren't' gonna make it. It was killing us."

   "Wait, you mean, you guys didn't?" he paused. "You didn't do this to me?"

  "No, last I remember we-"

   

My heart sunk. Last thing I remembered was being in a room with Calum, before the incident. My lips started to shiver. I was grateful for the darkness because that meant that Lou couldn't read the emotion from my face.

   

  "What Harry?" he stammered. I could feel the awkward look he was giving me. "Remember what??"

  "Lou?" I cracked, feeling the tears crawl down my face. "He's dead-"

   

There was an awkward silence, but I could hear Lou's quiet whimpers. He must have thought I was talking about one of us.

   

  "W-who?" he asked, his voice shaky too.

   "Calum" I cried. And in that same moment, I relived his last words. "And it's all my fault-"

  "What??" he huffed like he were scared. "What do you mean?? Y-you, you killed him??"

  "I had no choice" I wined. "I had to pick who would die and, it came down to the three of you-"

   "Three of us??"

  "You, Calum and Niall" I whimpered, whipping my nose. "How could I choose? If I could've chosen myself, I probably would've done it to save me from this, guilt."

  "You had no choice Haz," he sniffled. "Don't say it like your a monster-"

   "I am a monst-"

  "Stop it!" he ordered behind clinched teeth. I could hear the growl in his temper. "If someone puts a gun in your hand and forces you to pull the trigger, it doesn't make it your fault."