Lately, I got a hard headache so here I'am now laying in my bed for resting my mind after I drunk my latest medicine. I just thought this is a consequence because I'm starting to over thinking for everything these days.
For some reason I felt chaos, confusion and fear all around me but the others side I still tried to find the reason to live.
At my ages,
Why I sleep too late in every night?
Why I can't reveal my mind and talk freely?
Why I start loosing my hopes and continue doing a reckless behavior?
Why I still can't get enough for love that I get from people around me?
Or are they really gave me those love not fake love?
When the time changes, can I finally reach my tough dream?
When the time changes, do I really did my best work to life?
And;
When the time changes, is there the time I would to know the reason to not die? But then, I'm thinking over it again and again. I belived, for what happened today it's because the fate who has outlined by God to us.
So, tomorrow I'll be sure to get up from my bed, dressed up, showed up, do my best, and faced the world until I found the answers from all my questions.
Because just like what Robert Frost ever said:
"The best way is always through."
-Chanisa
