Justin
Locking up my office door, I leaned against the cold glass as I breathed out. Running a hand through my hair over my sweaty forehead, I checked my watch.
9:05
I usually got out by six but not tonight. The meeting was the longest I had ever had. It was hot, boring, and stupid, I wanted to rip my ears off. I'd rather hear Grace's annoying voice than listen to someone talk about graphs for an hour.
Feeling a vibration in my pocket, I took it out.
Grace posted:
"My baby girl just crawled over to me and got into my lap while I was practicing my yoga. What a sweetheart! #halfwaytobaby'sfirststeps"
My heart sunk. I couldn't even look at it anymore. Quickly turning my phone all the way off, I blinked back the tears. I repeatedly asked Grace to let me see her but after my lash out on her a few months back, she won't let me near her. It was like she thought I'd hurt her.
I knew she wasn't mine, but I had gotten attached to her.
Stepping into the elevator, I stood patiently as the numbers counted down.
29...
28...
27...I wanted to kick the fucking doors and just jump down and hit the bottom. BAM! You're dead. Why was I so miserable? Was it because I cut off my mom, and she probably thinks I hate her? Maybe it's because I thought I had a daughter and I was lied to. Or maybe it's because I'm so fucked up in the head that no one will trust me. Not even the love of my life. I slide down the wall and breathed out heavily. I can't even stand in the elevator quietly without having a mini melt down.
Ding.
Once the doors slid open, I stood up and walked into the parking garage. Striding to my regular parking space, I let out a angry groan when my car was gone.
"What the fuck is going on in my life?!" I yelled at the empty air in front of me, along with my empty car space.
Walking over to the concrete wall to look out at the city, I scoffed.
Maybe I should jump off the building, no one would care.
Negative thoughts... negative thoughts. That's all that entered my mind. I was practically shaking hands with the dark parts of my thoughts, letting them take over.
"Justin?"
"Oh look I'm hallucinating angel voices... has god come to give me a lecture?"
"Uh... no, its me." She said knowing I'd recognize her voice. "I-I was riding by and stopped at a bar and ran into Dan." She explained. "He said he saw the towing company leaving your building a while ago. So he asked if I could come drop you off since... ya know I know where you live." Clearing her throat, I could feel her shying away like everyone always did around me.
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Our Little Secret [Sequel]
FanfictionThe couple of New York City aren't as perfect as they appear to be. Sequel to "Our Little Secret." - [j.b] Started on June 10, 2017. [COMPLETED] ✔️ *How do you guys still like this story? I be lowkey cringing sometimes 😭 (6.24.21)