Could It Be

Chapter 35

Bella's P.O.V.

I walk I'm to the house and the guys look at me and smile. I smile back to them and then take my bags to the room I was first in. I put the bags on the bed and head back downstairs to the libing room with everyone else and sit besides Emmett. He hands me a controller and we start playing some game that he likes. Its a racing game and I actually like it.

I can feel Esme staring at me from across the room but I make no mive to look at her. She hurt my feelings with the way she's acting and im not okay with that.

We play race after race after race until eventually its dark out and 10:30 pm.

"That was fun Emmett but ill beat you tomorrow so get ready to lose. Night everyone." I say and stand up.

"You cant beat me Bella so you better get ready to lose. Good night Bella sleep well." Emmett says.

I hear night Bella's as i start making my way up the stairs and to my room. I can already feel the pain of not having Esme close starting and I'm already sweating. I take off my sweats and take off my shirt so that I'm only in my bra and underwear. I put the bags on the floor besides the bed and lay down to try and get some sleep.

Esme's P.O.V.

Bella wont even acknowledge me. She didn't even put her stuff in our room, she put it in the first room she stayed in. I know Aloce and Rosalie are mad at me and I can tell that the rest are not happy with me.

As soon as Bella's door shuts they all turn to me with serious faces.

"Esme you have to tell Bella the truth. You have to tell her your past." Edward says.

"She is hurting Esme nkt only from being in heat but because she thinks you dont want her anymore because she has an extra part. Your breaking her heart by not telling her." Jasper says.

"Go to her right now and fix this. She's already suffering the pain and sweating. Help her and tell her Esme." Alice says.

"But im scared." I say.

"I don't care you need to tell her and I know she wont care Esme. Your mate that you have been looking for for ages is up there and she's hjrting because of you. Now get up there and tell her." Edward says.

I look down ashamed and stand up. I walk up the stairs and stand in front of her door. I listen to her breathing and can tell that she's almlst asleep. I walk in and stop at the doorway.

She is in only a bra and underwear. There is no covers covering her and she has a light sheet of sweat on her making her look sexy.

I walk all of the way in and shut the door behind me quietly and lock it. I stay there for a few more seconds and then start walking up to her. She has yet to realise that I am in the room with her. Her eyes are closed when I get besides her and I know shes about to accept sleep.

I place my hand on her stomach and i feel the sparks going between our skin. Her eyes fly open and she's looking right at me.

"Bella we need to talk." I say.

She nods her head and sits up. I sit besides her and she throws a blanket over herself, I really wish she didnt do that.

"Bella I'm acting strange because I....I'm scared. I'm nkt scared of you I'm scared from what happened to me in the past and...it just scares me. Before i was a vampire i had a husband and he was abusive. He rapped me on multiple occasions, abused me, hit me, and many more cruel things. He killed my child that was in my stomach by punching me there and cutting me. I have scars left over from it all that even being a vampire cant hide. Bella I knkw you would never do something like that to me but I'm just scared. What if your finally comfortable enough and ready to take that step while I think im ready but chicken out the last second? Bella i love you with everything in me alright, never doubt that. I want you Bella badly and it scares me how bad i want you. You are perfect to me in everyway Bella and even your extra part is perfect its just me." I say and look down.

We sit there for a few minutes in silence so i decide that I hurt her too bad so I start to get up and leave when I feel hands gripping my waist. She turns me around and gently pulls me onto her legs and then she leans forward and captures my lips in a gentle kiss.

She's so soft and careful in everything that she does like she's afraid she'll hurt me and that's when I knkw i should have never been scared. Bella would never hurt me and she's proving that right now just by this kiss.

"Esme im sorry you have a bad past, I didnt know. I love you Esme and if me leaving you alone would make you happy i was going to do it. Esme i will never force you to do anything that you dont want to do. Heck I still have no clue how it even works." She says and laughs a little.

I laugh as well and hug her. The blanket she had covering herself fell off when she mkved so she is not only in her bra and underwear in front of me. I look at her body and gently lay my hands on her stomach and she freezes up a little and she moves her hands off of my hips and puts them in her lap. I look down and grab her hands in mine and put them back on my hips. I look her in the eyes and smile to her. She smiles back nervously and then looks back down. I look down and see that she has a hard on. I look up at her and see that shes blushing.

"I'm uh I'm sorry. I haven't really figured out how to control it and yeah." She says and looks away from me.

"Its alright it doesnt bother me." I say to her and move my hands lower on her stomach.

She lets out a little moan and then looks away. I smirk at her and lean forward and start kissing her neck and sucming on the spot I'll mark her at. She moans out this time and scoots me up on her legs to where I'm not on her hard on mut close to it.

"I liked those jeans on you today, you looked hot and I wanted you right then and there." I whisper into her ear caussing her to shiver and to jerk a little.

I lick the outer shell of her ear and then pull back and sit beside her as she shakes a little and her face is red. She looks at me and i smirk at her. She reaches out and catches the back of my neck and pulls my lips on her lips and kisses me roughly before letting go and turning on her side with her butt facing me.

"You are so mean. Why would you do that you knkw it makes me all hot." She says.

"Because I like to be able to make you like that." I say. "Also nice butt." I say and playfully smack it.

She grabs the blanket and throws it over herself and huffs at me. I chuckle a little and then lay down beside her and pull her into my body so she can sleep peacefully.

"Good night Isabella." I whisper to her.

She groans and I smirk before calming down and relaxing into my mate.