Could It Be

Chapter 34

Bella's P.O.V.

Esme and I are sitting in the backseat while Alice and Rosalie are in the front talking about something. Its too fast for me to understand so I just stare out the window trying to distract myself. Esme hasn't said a thing to me since the kitchen episode and she hasn't looked at me since either.

I wonder what kind of clothes I'm going to have to get now. It'll have to be loose pants and tight underwear. My jeans will have to be loose in the legs because of Bella Jr. and most likely they will have to be from the guy department. Oh my gosh what am I going to do about PE.

I feel a hand on my knee and look down to see Esme looking at me. I look at her and she starts to lean in. I stay where I'm at and she comes to me. Her lips connect with mine and she's gentle. She bites my bottom lip making me want to moan but I stop myself so that hopefully Alice and Rosalie doesnt know what's going on back here. Esme's hand slides up my leg and is now resting on my thigh and very close to Bella Jr. Her other hand pulls my face closer to hers and sue deepens the kiss. Her tongue is in my mouth feeling around and clasping my own tongue. Her hand slides up a bit further before i pull away and quickly place my hands over my noticeable hard on and hunch over to cover it. I'm a blushing mess and she removes her hand from my thigh and loses all contact with me as she faces out the window. I look up and see Alice watching me and Rosalie looking at Esme. I think the three of them are having a conversation but they are talking really quiet. I stay hunched over and grab myself from outside of my sweats and rearrange myself so that its going down my pant leg and then I sit back and look out the window.

We arrive shortly later at the mall and i get out and i see Esme walking to my side. She grabs my hand and places it in hers and starts to walk toward the entrance of the mall.

"So Bella Rose and I know alot about shopping so we can help you out in finding some good clothes. First things first though and that's your underwear." Alice says and leads me towards a store with nothing but underwear.

"So i was thinking that you want some that's loose but tight at the same time so I'm just going to hand you a pair to try and you can tell me if you like them and if you do we can find some that you like." Rosalie says.

I nod my head and she quickly finds me a pair that she thinks I'll like and shoos me off into the direction of the dressing rooms. Once I enter the dressing room i quickly take off my sweats and my underwear and try the pair she gave me on.

I like them. They are boxers but they are tight where i need them to be and loose where i want them to be. These actually dont look that bad on me. I take them back off and put mine back on and head out to meet up with the three of them.

"I uh I like these." I say and they all nod.

"Alright now go look around and find what colors you want and then come back to us and we can then go find you some jeans." Alice says.

I nkd my head and take off. As soon as i get away from them I start to feel the pain come back and i start to sweat. I quickly pick out a few colors and then head back to them and walk to Esme and grab her hand. I instantly start to feel better and I can see the others look worried.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Bella we are so sorry. We forgot that you and Esme have to stick by each other until this goes away for you. Next time we'll all walk with you so you dont have to be in pain." Rosalie says.

"Oh its alright its not that bad." I lie.

"Bella we can see the sweat on your face." Alice says.

I look down and hand them the ones I picked out and then we check out and leave the store and start walking to some name brand jean store. Esme has yet to say a single thing to me. What have i done wrong?

Esme's P.O.V.

I haven't said a word to Bella and i know its hurting her. I just can't explain my sudden outbursts when I do that and i dont want to tell her my past and how im scared. Then I keep forgetting she has to be beside me in order to not feel the pain and to not sweat.

Currently we are walking to American Eagle to find some jeans for her so shes comfortable. As soon as we walk into the store I let go of her hand and start going to the jeans. Bella is close behind me and so is Alice and Rosalie. I get to the jean rack and find a pair that i think she'd like and hand them to her. She grabs my hand and leads us to the dressing rooms. She gets in and pulls me in with her and locks the door behind her.

"What's wrong Esme? You haven't said a single word to me since the kitchen incident. What did I do, whatever i did im sorry okay." She says and then drops her sweats and takes them off. She takes the jeans and puts them on and looks in the mirror.

DAMMMM SHE LOOKS GOOD

Im staring and i want her. I want to have her shove her dick in me and do it right here.

Oh my gosh what's wrong with me. I want that but yet again I don't.

She takes the jeans off and puts her sweats back on and then looks at me.

"I like these jeans." She says and then makes sure the doors locked.

She walks up to me slowly and then grabs my face gently with her hands and looks me in the eyes. She leans in and kisses me softly on the lips before pulling away and backing up.

"I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you anymore." She says and leaves the dressing room.

I just sit there and if i could cry i would. She thinks i hate her because shes different. She doesnt think i love her because she has a dick.

I leave the dressing room a few minutes later and see that Bella has picked out a few more of those jeans in different colors and fades and that they're checking out right now. I walk over to Bella but she doesnt move. I stand besides her and we walk out of the store.

We leave the mall and head back to the car. She gets in and sits as far away from me as she can and doesnt give me a single look or even talks the whole ride home. I can tell that Alice and Rosalie are mad at me and i can't blame them.

I hurt my mates feelings just because im scared of what happened in my past. I need to tell Bella of my past so she knows i love her and still want her.