AN: Last Chapter
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"We'll leave you two alone"
Greg and Mycroft stood outside as Sherlock walked in
"Sherlock" John whispered
"Good to see you awake" Sherlock said bluntly
"I know what the doctors are saying, please don't get upset"
"Don't get upset? You expect me to be happy if you die? You want me to sit there and take it?" Sherlock demanded
"That's what I had to do" John said angrily "I waited years for you, I thought you were dead"
"I'm so sorry John, please don't leave me"
"Sherlock, I'm sorry, I don't think I have a choice"
"Please"
"Sherlock, you can say please all you want, I'm going to die"
"Die another time, die when you're old, like you're meant to"
"Working with you? I was never gonna die old"
"It's my fault, if I hadn't met you you'd be fine"
"No Sherlock, if I hadn't met you I'd have a boring little life doing nothing, I can't thank you enough for what you've done"
"Still, I'm sorry"
"Remember Buckingham palace?" John asked randomly
Sherlock smiled
"How could I forget?"
"I can't believe you went in there in nothing but a sheet"
"I don't think Mycroft appreciated it"
"I don't think the Queen would've of, if she'd been there"
"That would've been the cherry on the cake"
"Indeed, Sherlock, stay with me?"
"Of course"
Sherlock sat beside John and lay his head on the bed, drifting of to sleep to the sound of John's heartbeat.
Around 3am Sherlock was shaken away by John
"I'm sorry, Sherlock" he said with tears in his eyes
"No, don't leave me, I can't be alone again, please"
"I'm so sorry Sherlock"
John breathed in a shaky breath
"Then I guess, if it's my last chance to say it, Sherlock Holmes, I love you"
Sherlock felt tears run down his face and looked at John
"John Watson, I..."
He was interrupted by a sound he heard only in his nightmares, John had flatlined before he could finish admitting his feelings.
Sherlock ran, he ran past Mycroft and Greg, he ran out the hospital, he couldn't watch them try and fail to save John, he'd missed his last chance, Sherlock found himself on a beach, twenty minutes later, he stood on the sand silently.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry John"
The only sand was the waves hitting the sand
"I failed you, I'm so sorry for that, for everything" he spoke to nobody and continued to stare out to sea
"I loved you... no, I love you, present tense"
Sherlock sank to his knees and began to cry, he'd lost everything he'd loved, he knew all to well what it was to lose a loved one and now it had happened again.
"John"
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