Without You

*24*

[Edited]

The sudden confession make her froze.

I'm already missing you, since a long time ago.

"I know that you're listening, Kim Taeyeon."

She bit her lower lip, preventing her tears from flowing down. It's not that she didn't want to talk to him, it's just she afraid if he will realized her shaking voice.

"If you're going to cry, then don't say anything. I can't bare to hear you cry, when I can't be there with you."

She closes her eyes, letting the warm tears touch her cheeks.

He knows me well than myself.

"Just keep listening to what I want to say."

"Usually, at this time, I will ask myself, if you're thinking about me, just like this pathetic self. Sometimes, I sleep while imagining that you're in my embrace. That you're still in my arms. I hate it when I woke up and realized that it is just a pillow that didn't even related to you."

Me too.

"Sometimes, I will stare at our couple items that only could be keep in the closet. When can I wear it again? I keep asking a same question. "

Her eyes turns to the black bracelet that wrapped around her left wrist.

I still wearing it everytime I'm not in public.

"Not lying, every time I walk in rain, your presence always in front of me. My mind can't stop flashing the scene when we're arguing for the break up. It is also raining at that time. Do you remember it?"

Of course I still remember it.

"When the fans supported Kai and Krystal, I can't stop myself to feel jealous. It just felt unfair. Why can't us? Why it is not us?"

I don't know either.

"But, how about you? Do you still love me? Do you miss me? Do you still care about me?"

I still.

"Deep inside my heart, I know that you still love me. Your eyes, it never dare to lie with me. But, why did you keep pushing me away? I know that you need me in your life, so please,"

"Don't back away from me, again. I need you."

His voice crack at the end, making her heart clenching.

Why is it so hard for us?

"I'm sorry.. " The words slipped out from her lips.

"I love you too but, "

"It is just too hurt. Too unfair."

"I know but--"

"I know that we can keep waiting. But, did our fans will stop hating?" I asked.

You know the answer..

"Then--"

"Let's, " I cut him for a million times. 

"Let's just hope that the time will be on our side, Byun Baekhyun."

With that, her finger clicks on the end button, not even waiting for his answer.

She cupped her face with her palms, hiding the sobs herself. He is not there to comfort her. He is not there to wipe her tears.

And at that time, she regret it.