Falling Into You

Chapter 35

2 months later.
Rene and I have been engaged for two months now, together for 3 and a half. For the most part things have been amazing, but tensions have been running high. The show tonight went well, but I've been so distracted lately. We've decided to start making another album, so we've been having to secretly have meetings with songwriters, and have secret recording sessions. Add that to soundchecks and concerts almost everyday, and the fact that we still haven't found a new backup singer to replace Cheryl, and it's quite possibly the most stressful thing I've dealt with.
"Céline, you in there?" I hear Rene knock on my dressing room.
"Yes" I sigh as I stare into the mirror. He opens the door and walks into the room.
"The show was great honey" he says as he places his hands on my shoulder and kisses my cheek.
"No it wasn't, and you know it"
"What do you mean? You're always great, tonight was no exception"
"Rene couldn't you tell, these past few concerts haven't been good, we're still missing a backup singer, we have no time to find one, and on top of it all, you and I haven't had a conversation that didn't involve work in weeks"
"Calm down sweetheart. We'll find a backup singer. And why don't you and I go out tomorrow just the two of us, we have the day off"
"No Rene, we don't. Every single day off is now booked with meetings, and recording sessions, I love my job but I'm going crazy. And I love you but it's too hard" I freeze after realizing what I just said, and I know it wasn't any accident. I do love Rene. More than anything in the world, but it's like we're not even lovers anymore, we're business partners who go home with each other.
"What do you mean it's too hard? Are you saying you don't want to be with me anymore?" He looks hurt as he analyzes what I just said.
"I-I don't know. I just-" I stop, trying to keep myself from breaking down and trying to think of the best way to handle this. "I just feel like we aren't us anymore. Rene I love you more than anything, you know that. But lately things have been different. I know you can feel it too. After we got engaged things just changed. We stopped noticing each other, stopped paying attention to each other, stopped being lovers and became business partners. We don't have conversations like we used to, we never just talk about our day or what's on our mind, it's always work, and tour and album, and I can't do it anymore" I stop as a tear falls from my eye.
"Céline no, we can work through this. We can stop talking about the album, postpone it even. Just please think about this"
"I have thought about this. I've been thinking about this for a while, and I can't do it anymore. Now if you'll excuse me I have to go" I walk away from him, knowing I'm about to break down and I don't him to see me like that. I walk out of my dressing room, closing the door behind me. I walk away fast, avoiding eye contact with everyone, when I hear Rene coming up behind me.
"Céline, don't go. Please, I love you. You know I do. We can work past this, once tour is over it won't be as stressful"
"Don't you get it? I don't want to wait until tour is over. I've wanted to be with you for so long, I didn't know it would turn out like this" I turn away from, hoping he'll give up and let me go. But he doesn't give up, and people are starting to notice.
"Céline I've been in love with you for years, I'm not willing to throw that all away now just because of some minor distractions. Why is it so easy for you to do it?"
"Because" I say a little too loudly, causing people to turn and listen, but I don't even care anymore. "I know what it's like to be in an unhappy relationship. I can't go through that again, I won't go through that again. After that I vowed to not let myself go through that pain again, I can't be in a relationship I'm unhappy in. It's too hard. I'm sorry Rene, but it's over" I don't stay around long enough to hear his response, I just rush out of the building, tears falling from my eyes.
I don't know what to do now. I never thought Rene and I would ever split, so I never had a backup place to stay. I could stay with Elise considering she probably overheard the conversation, along with everyone else.
But for some reason there's only one person I can think of to go to, and I don't know why but it seems like the only option now.
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Authors Note: I updated! Sorry it's taken so long, I've been having major writers block and my last few chapters haven't been very good so I wasn't sure anyone was still interested. But alas, here we are. This chapter literally breaks my heart to write and I'm sorry, but it's going to be important and it had to happen in order for this book to continue (and hopefully get more interesting). So again I'm sorry it's taken so long, I'm sorry this chapter is sad, and I love you guys, and I hope you enjoy anyway! Thanks so much for reading, and I'll be updating very soon :)