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Chapter Twenty | Famous last words
"For you, I was the chapter. For me, you were the whole book."

Bellamy's Point of View

It would've been a cliche movie seen had I kicked the rock I just walked past, with my hood pulled over my head, and a frown etched on my face. It surprised me—oh who am I kidding, of course I miss Hadley. Everything about her. I bet she doesn't think about me often though.

It wouldn't make sense if she did. She's the one who wanted things to go back to how things were before. To say the least, I think my heart fractured–no, broke that night. Hadley didn't deserve that.  She didn't deserve me. It's only been a few days and I am desperate to fix things between us. She was my best friend. I can't remember the last time I hung out with my other friends.

I sound like a lunatic. An insane obsessed person? I bet. I arrived at school quickly and earned my daily glares from Max and curious glance from Lyra. I concealed my from slightly and ran up to a group of my friends. Oliver had somehow ended up here too. I subtly glared at him and my friends said hey and tapped my back. I greeted them and they went on to talk about some new kid? I'm not completely sure  though because that kind of stuff doesn't interest me.

"Oof," One of the boys started. He nodded his head in some direction and we all looked to see what he was looking at. "She's pretty. But so... weird." It took me a moment to realize who he was taking about.

Another one of my friends, Austin, spoke up. "Hadley Ashby? She's in my chem class. Totally weird..." He paused. "Totally cute though." He nodded multiple times.

"Would you date her?" Darin, another one of the boys, asked.

The kid who spoke first spoke again, unfortunately. "No way. Personally, too in-proportional for my liking." His comment caused many too laugh except I was feeling the exact opposite.

"What the hell! You are such an ass!" I snap. His eyes go wide and he raises hands. "Damn..." I finish then walk away from the group of boys. It bothers me that, not too long ago, I thought the same way.

But I know better now. On my way through the halls I passed the countless signs with the same phrase "Coco for prom queen!" On it. Prom? That's already happening? Yikes.

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I knocked gentle on Hadley's front door and waited patiently for her to come out. However, Ms. Ashby opened the door, David standing behind her and several boxes stacked behind him. "Oh! Bellamy, come in!" She said happily. I did and looked around. There were so many boxes. Things looked like they were disappearing.

"Are you moving?" I asked. She nodded her head.

"Yes we are."

"Is Hadley okay with this?" Ma.Ashby's eyes snapped to David then back to me and she awkwardly smiled.

She relaxed a little then answered. "She does. I told her when she got home. I mean," she looked around and laughed. "It wasn't like it wasn't extremely obvious. We've been packing all day."

I nodded. "Where are you guys moving too?" She looked surprised for a second but answered quickly.

"Still in this town, just to a bigger house." She must've known what I was about to ask as she continued. "We need more space for David and Oliver." I hummed in understanding. "Did you need something, hun?" She asked and stepped closer to me.

I thought for a minute. Why exactly did I come here? "Uh—Yeah, um, is Hadley here?" Hadley's mom opened her mouth then closed it then looked at David then to me.

She smiled sympathetically at me. "Upstairs. Go on up." She told me and I thanked her and went up stairs. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. She opened the door then went back to her bed without even looking at who it was. I have a strong feeling she'd close the door if she saw me.

I step in though. She ate out of a bag of sour skittles, her eyes glued to the TV. I knew it was the show Reign, she's obsessed with that show. "I could've been an axe murderer." I mock and her eyes snap up to me. Her pale cheeks slowly started to turn a light shade of pink and her eyes widened to the side of Farris wheels.

"W...What are you doing here?" She sputtered and put Reign on pause and put her skittles on her bedside table. She got up and I knew she was going to try and push me out of her room.

I smiled as she struggled to compose herself. "I should've thought of what I was going to say before walking in here, huh?" She didn't say anything, she just looked at me.

"This...This isn't pretending each other don't exist." Her voice was quiet. She was much more nervous than she was this morning. I closed the door behind me and her nose scrunched together. I came back up to her and her blue and green eyes stayed fixated on me. I brushed back a price of her hair that was carelessly cascading down her back. "What are you doing?" She grabbed my hand and pushed it away.

I though of my words carefully. "Hadley, I know you don't want to hear this again but, I'm so sorry. I–I've made the biggest mistake of my life. I regret it so much. You have no idea," I paused. "Hadley, I think I may lo-."

"I hate you, for what you did." She said simply. The air was knocked out of my lungs and it honestly felt like my world was falling apart. How did everything so great suddenly flip and crest something so catastrophic. Hate. The word lingered in the air for the longest time, creating a thick tension in the room that you could cut with a knife.

I inhaled but it didn't seem to make anything better. There was a lump in my throat closing it off, not allowing any air. Her eyes moved back up and you could see the tears brimming her eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it again. Was she going to say 'I didn't mean that!'? I hoped. But she wasn't. I licked my lips and pulled her in for a hug.

I enjoyed this brief moment then let her go and left. "Did you guys talk?" David asked me as I walked past him. I turned towards him.

I shook my head. "No, she was in the shower." He nodded slowly and I left their house. I walked home upset with everything and everybody. Nothing has gone according to plan. It never does.

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