He didn't know what was going on
With her
With their relationship
He didn't know.
He walked to Charlie's house, it was close and he needed advice now.
He knocked on the door ever so slowly. A sleepy Charlie opened the door where you could only see his face but Shawn busted open and started ranting.
"Charlie, she said she hate me, I saw her today and I finally had her back and she hates me. What the fuck do I do, what do I do now"
"Bud I told you space"
"Not it's not space"
"Maybe it is, listen Shawn you've been dating for six years and I know it sucks but maybe she want to spend time to herself" charlie pointed out
"It can't be"
"It could be"
""I have to go talk to her now don't I"
"And see what she wants, not what you think she wants" charlie told Shawn
He slowly nodded and Shawn stepped out of his dorm before rushing back to his dorm and opening it with his key and find out what Camila wanted, even if it wasn't him
Shawn used his key and unlocked the door to his dorm. He heard her sniffles and his heart broke.
"Camila" he said softly
Her eyes watered hearing his voice, why comeback. She never wanted him to comeback.
"Yes" she replied in a small cracking voice.
"Can we talk" she needed to talk to him, she couldn't push it any farther
"Fine" she said walking out of the kitchen facing him in the living
"What's wrong" he said with a concerning voice
"Nothing" she said wiping her tears
"Fuck Camila it's not nothing c'mon you can tell me anything" he said reaching his arm out for her she pushed it away
"I can't tell you"
"What do you mean, you've told me everything for six years. I can handle it, you can handle it. We will handle it together"
A cry of plead covered his face.
"No" she said
"What?" He replied
"I'm tired of you always being the one being helped, I'm always dragging you into my world of problem, I'm worthless to you" she told him bitterly
Even though it wasn't the truth, it's how she felt. And she knew he always deserved better.
"You have never dragged me into a problem. You are not worthless to me, hell you are the reason why I wake up camz don't be hard on yourself" he said
"How can I not be hard on my self?! My mother is dead my dad beats me for a living, your parents pay for my school tuition, I'm a mistake" Camila yelled
"That's not true, you're not a mistake,"
"Hell it is. Go get with some other rich girl and live a happy life because I will never give you that"
"Camila what the fuck?¿ you are my happiness, and I need you to tell me what's wrong" Shawn yelled back
"I'm What's wrong" she told him, he responded with a confuse look "I'm not worthy of your love, I don't deserve you or anything" Camila told him
She couldn't tell him the truth, she was tired of being in this mess and it was time to let go of her problems, of life and Shawn.
"Camila what are you saying? You are worth everything and more. You are my reason of happiness my reason to do anything, my motivation what do I have to say for you to believe me" Shawn cried
"There's nothing you can say for me to stop thinking that I'm a mistake" she cried back
"Camila I-" Shawn had tears flowing heavily down his face
"You What shawn, your sorry. Well don't be because you don't have to be, you've done nothing wrong. Shawn I'm sorry that I'm just a failure, I'm just another weight to your life" she screamed at him
"Who told you this, your nothing of that, your my She grother half camz I want you to know what you mean to me which is everything" Shawn yelled at her pouring her heart to her
"I'm sorry" she said walking up to him "but I can't do this" they were inches apart
"Cam-" Shawn said but was cut off
"No... don't try to change my mind. Get out" she said
"No don't do this, you don't mean it" Shawn cried
She grabbed his hand and tip-toed to his ear and whisper in a faint cry
"I'm breaking up with you"
Those words shocked him, angered him. He lost her. He really lost her. And he couldn't comprehend that he lost the love of his life
"I love you" Shawn told her
"I did too" she lied
All she did was lie to him
That's all she did and there was no more trust in their relationship no more love. Everything disappeared. Cameron took away her saviour and made him her worst enemy.
Shawn collected a couple of his shirts and outfits and left, he was gone. Forever. Her soulmate, her best friend, her boyfriend. He was gone.
She climbed into her bed and cried and cried. How could she stop.
She lost him, but she won't have to tell him about the abuse, he wouldn't get hurt by him, he won't touch Shawn. She would sacrifice her life for Shawn any day and she didn't have to think twice.
But she needed time to herself, time to figure thing out without Shawn distracting her. It was time for her to take control and take matters into her own hands
But how could she when her sidekick left, and he will never comeback. How could she do anything if he wasn't there to support her in the ruff times.
Sometimes life gets hard, sometimes it gets a little to much, to much to handle. And she couldn't handle it anymore. Everything was out of control she just wanted time to stop, but life doesn't stop if it gets hard. It keeps going and it's your choices that will make up your future, the good and bad that happens in life are up to you and your choices.
She knew she had made bad decisions
She knew one of them was not telling Shawn about Cameron
She knew one was letting it get this far.
She knew one of them was Lying to him
She knew one was letting him go was one to
But it was time to fix the problems
She just needed to process life without him. And how she will get justice. She just doesn't need shawn right now. He is a distraction
And there is no room for distractions
A/N: another chapter cuz I felt like it💁🏻💁🏻💁🏻. Happy Canadian thanksgiving weekend!
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