She let him go, he won't come back for her. Why come back for the broken person she is?
He was her only happiness, only light in life and she took that all away from herself. He was trying to help, know what was going on but she couldn't bring herself to say anything about the truth.
She knew the truth would hurt him more, break him. This break up was better for her well being and her mental state and he couldn't help, because he was the problem now that he wasn't in her life maybe Cameron won't either.
She never thought of Cameron, she was his toy. Play with her use her and when he was done throw her out. But when will he be done with her, questions that felt like there were no answers.
She felt broken and alone. But it was time to fix it by herself for once and Shawn won't be their to help her she's all alone. For once, she will be as independent and strong as she knew she once was.
——
His mind still processing her words.
I'm breaking up with you
Echoed through his empty brain while he walked to Cameron's house on a chilly Tuesday night.
He thought Camila and him would be together forever, they were soulmates. He look forward to their future seeing their children running around a playground while the two sat their and watched how happy life was, how perfect everything would be.
But everything was not perfect, everything was shit. It wasn't how he planned. It wasn't the life he wanted it was the opposite. His girl told him he wanted nothing of him, not a fibre of his skin, she couldn't look him in the eyes. Her tearful eyes. It broke his heart that he couldn't wrap his arms around her when he knew he should have.
He knocked Cameron's dorm and out came Cameron with a bright happy smile.
"Yo Shawn what's up"
He wanted to cry, he wanted to cry but he hid his emotion he needed to feel strong, but he couldn't.
""Cameron, s-she broke up with me."
Cameron showed a shock emotion. But on the inside he felt so pleasant, finally what he wanted was all to himself and not even Shawn could stop him from getting at what he wanted, it was her. It's always been Camila.
"Camila?" He said bitting his cheeks so a smile wouldn't break his lips
"Who the fuck else dumbass" Shawn sassed
He was so angry, who knew what she was doing. Why did she say what she say, it was tearing him apart.
"Jesus, okay" he said letting Shawn in
"I'm sorry, I'm just so angry right now" Shawn apologize
He was confused, lost without her, he completed her and he knew for a fact nobody could replace her, their relationship. Shawn and Camila were like no other, they were both made for each other, nobody could take each other's place. And he was scared that he would be, replace by someone that could treat her worth more than he ever could. Someone that was better than him.
"Bud you knew it was bond to happen, she is unstable" Cameron told him.
"Shut up, she's not" Shawn told him
"Like shit she is, have you been in her life her mom died, her dad is behind bars for abusing her. That's sounds more unstable than anything else" Cameron's starting stating her past
Her past doesn't represent her future the present. She was going through something, don't we all. Shawn was the only one who could see it, but she wouldn't let him
"Fuck you bro, maybe if you didn't use girls as fucking sex toys and not be such a fuck boy maybe you could actually have a stable relationship" Shawn lost it
Nobody talks to him about Camila like that, especially not in front of him. He wouldn't tolerate it, and he certainly not from his best friend.
Cameron laughed as he was grabbing his keys
"Where are you fucking going" Shawn scoffed
"Gonna go be that fuck boy you think I am Shawny" Cameron laughed again as Shawn rolled his eyes and Cameron left the house
To go to her,
And use her.
—
She heard a knock
She didn't think of who it could be
And oh, how she regretted to pick up that door
"Camila, hun how are you" Cameron smirked
Camila rolled her eyes and walked the other way
"Mad? Oh boy what did I do" Cameron smirked
"Fuck you" she looked at him with hatred.
"Yes, I will fuck you" Cameron smirked, Camila gagged in her mouth.
"Get out" Camila sternly said
"No." He said walking up to Camila
There faces were inches apart.
"You broke up with shawn, your mine now" Cameron said kissing Camila
The feeling of Cameron's lips against Camila replied her, with her reflexes she punched him in the stomach and he quickly backed off.
"Did you jus-". Cameron said shocked but was cut off
"Hit you. Yeah. And I'm not your fucking toy. Listen now. Get the fuck out of my dorm" she yelled at him
His cold hands wrapped around her small fragile neck as he backed her up to a wall
"I won't, and I'm not loosing to a girl. I will win." He said she hated him with every inch on her body.
He proceeded to throw her across the floor.
"I told you, dis obey me, you get in trouble. And guess who's in trouble" Cameron smirked
She didn't let her tears fall, that would show a sign of weakness, and she knew she couldn't show any sign of weakness
He stripped her of her clothing leaving her in only her undergarments, she shivered.
She felt his punches and kicks all over her body, she felt his fist to her lip and the blood rush down as he busted it open. She felt the multiple punches to her eyes.
She didn't cry, she stuck to her word.
No
Weakness
"Now hunny, now that I hurt you let me kiss you better" she rolled eyes
"What a fuckboy you are" she said as she tried to stand up, but fell
She was weak, no power left, she was numb with all the pain, inside and out. She wanted to break free from his trap. From his curse he had put her in, but she couldn't.
"Oh Camila, your ex just told me that" he said and just remembering Shawn, broke her
She cried thinking of the pain she most probably put him in, he just wanted to help
Why didn't she let him help.
She felt his mouth near her neck as his hands were trying to remove her from her undergarments. She closed her eyes. She cried. But she let the nightmare go on
She wasn't strong.
She was weak
She had lost this fight. She was new their will be more battles to fight, win or loose. She was one step closer to put Cameron to justice and get Shawn back
But she lost this fight
Hands down she lost this fight...
A/N: long ass chapter. But your welcome. If you like this book I guess 😉 something interesting will be coming soon? Also when do you think Shawn should know about what Cameron is doing?? Comment. Soon or later?
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