i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter one]

Amanda

THE MAN CAME ONTO the stage with his guitar. Both Alesha and I found that he was cute and both Alesha and David were fawning over him.

"What's your name?" Alesha asked the man. Alesha smiled and him and she looked gorgeous. I loved it whenever Alesha was smiling and laughing because it just improved on how beautiful she already was.

"Camden," the man replied, winking towards David. "But David can call me anything he would like."

I laughed and so did Alesha. I laughed because she had been fawning over a man that was gay and I had found him cute, thinking that he liked women.

"Are you married?" David asked cheekily.

"No, I am single, David," Camden replied just as cheekily as David had asked him the question.

"Perfect!" David declared, making Alesha laugh again and I laughed as well. We were making Simon roll his eyes which made it even more funny. David loved to annoy Simon to no end and it didn't help that they were always winding each other up so Alesha and I were laughing most of the time during audition filming for Britain's got Talent.

"Why? Are you interested, David? I can see Alesha looking at me with the same look as you, David," Camden cheekily spoke and Alesha blushed bright red.

"What are you going to be singing?" Simon interupped David from answering Camden's question.

"I'm Gonna Love You Through It by Martina McBride, Simon," Camden replied, putting his microphone into the stand in front of him on the stage.

"Start whenever you're ready. Good luck," Simon prompted.

"Thank you," Camden replied, picking his guitar up and positioning his fingers to play the song. He strummed a few chords and then began to sing in a rough sounding voice.

"She dropped the phone and burst into tears
The doctor just confirmed her fears
Her husband held it in and held her tight
Cancer don’t discriminate or care if you’re just 38
With three kids who need you in their lives
He said, 'I know that you’re afraid and I am, too
But you’ll never be alone, I promise you.'"

I had no one by my side when I found the lump on my breast and I only had my daughters, Lexi and Hollie. Only Lexi knew the gravity of the situation as to what the lump on my right breast meant.

"When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I'm going to love you through it."

It felt like I was about to cry from Camden's song. It was hitting home for me and no one else on the panel knew why. I touched my face with one if my hands but felt nothing. I wasn't crying yet.

"She made it through the surgery fine
But they had to take more than they planned
Now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts
To hide what the cancer took from her
But she just wants to feel like a woman again."

When I brought a hand to my face again, I felt tears as Camden sang. I was crying and I knew why. There was a lump in my right breast and when I had gone for my mammogram, my doctor found it and they were doing a biopsy on it. I didn't know if I had breast cancer or not yet but I would likely need surgery to remove it.

"When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I'm going to love you through it
Oh baby
Yeah."

I was bawling tears and both Simon and Alesha looked at me concerned. They didn't know why I was crying. I couldn't tell Alesha that I might have cancer. It would break her heart and I had a crush on her. I couldn't do that to her.

"And when this road gets too long
I'll be the rock you lean on
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I'm going to love you through it
I'm going to love you through it."

Alesha furrowed her brows at me and mouthed if I was alright. I didn't answer her and kept my mouth shut. I would tell her soon enough once I got the phone call from my doctor about the results from the biopsy on the lump. I only nodded my head when Simon asked if it was a yes or a no from me when we started to vote on Camden.

Simon spoke and told Camden he was through and I rushed to get up from my seat. I was really crying now and I couldn't get control of it. I ran up on of the aisles in between the rows of seats and ran out of the auditorium.

I ran into a hallway by the green room for us judges and sank against the wall, hugging my knees to my chest as the tears kept coming. I heard a person's footsteps near the hallway and then come into the hallway, slowing down as they reached me.

I didn't bring up my head from my knees so I didn't know who followed me. I noticed that I was already soaking my dress around my knees and I felt a person sit down next to me and pull me into a hug.

Feminine arms pulled me into the hug and rocked me, trying to comfort me.

It was Alesha that had followed me and she was trying to comfort me as she asked, "is everything okay, Mandy?"

•《a.a.》•

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