i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter twenty]

Alesha

I STARTED TO HUM what we had considered our song after we had made love for the first time since Amanda had her mastomecty. Amanda had her head resting on my chest and we were holding hands.

 "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey so please don't take my sunshine away," I sang to her as I kissed her forehead while Amanda tried to sleep.

"Alesha?" Amanda asked, her eyes opening from not being able to sleep.

"What is it, babe?" I asked, kissing Amanda's forehead again.

"Do you love me even with all the scars and no nipples?" Amanda blurted out as she fought the urge to cover her chest with the bedsheets.

"Yes, I love you immensley even with the scars and the fact that you don't have nipples anymore. Love isn't about physical beauty but it's about inner beauty," I answered Amanda's question. "Does that answer your question?"

"Yes; it does. I love you so much, Alesha," She replied, pulling the bed sheets down to expose both of our breasts and then adjusted it so it covered my nipples.

"I love you too, Amanda," I replied, kissing her lips gently.

《h.d.》

I woke Amanda up by kissing her lips and rubbing my thumb underneath her breast, causing a soft moan to slip out of Amanda's lips as she awoke.

"Morning, babe," I said, kissing her again.

"Morning, baby," she responded. "I'm going to go get a shower. You can join me if you want."

"I will," I replied, smirking.

"I know what you're thinking from that smirk and no, we aren't not going to shag in the shower. It's not safe," Amanda reprimanded, chuckling as she got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

I watched her arse as she walked to the bathroom and then quickly followed her into the bathroom and caught her in a hug, putting my arms around her waist as she waited for the water to heat up enough.

"Do you want me or something now because we've started making love again to each other?" Amanda asked laughing.

"Yes," I replied, "but I always want you, Amanda."

I kissed down Amanda's neck and kissed where her neck met her shoulder. Amanda's shoulders went up when I kissed her there and she detached herself from my arms.

"You have to wait until tonight if you want to have me," Amanda said cheekily as she got into the shower with me following her closely behind.

The warm water hit my back and I got the body wash before Amanda did. I squirted some into my hands and I hugged Amanda again, my hands going to her breasts and I began to wash them gently.

"What did I just say, Alesha?" Amanda warned. "You can't have me again until tonight."

"I am going to wait until tonight. I'm just washing you," I replied, my hands going lower on Amanda's body to wash her hips.

"Fine," Amanda responded, giving into me washing her although I hadn't had to do it since she could move her arms above her head after the mastectomy when she had recovered.

I stayed away from in between Amanda's legs as I washed her but I still pressed my breasts against her back as I washed her thighs. Amanda let out another soft moan as I washed her, making me chuckle.

I stopped washing her when I had reached her feet and Amanda took the body wash off the shelf, sweeping some of it into her hands.  She put her hands on my breasts, her fingers already going to my nipples and rubbing them in circles.

"Not fair," I complained as I moaned. "You can't do that while you're washing me."

"Fine," Amanda said, rolling her eyes and her hands went to my stomach and rubbed it as she put her head against my shoulder. Her hands went even lower a minute later and she washed my hips.

I moaned again as Amanda's hand darted in between my thighs quickly as she washed by hips and then she knelt down on the shower floor.

She washed my legs as quickly as she could and then returned up to my level, kissing me when she stood up.

"How long do we have to stay in here while the children are asleep still?" She asked, kissing me again while I kissed her back.

"At least ten minutes for Azura to stay asleep," I replied, deepening our kiss. My hands went to the small of Amanda's back and I pulled her closer to me so our breasts were pressed together, my nipples touching her scars.

"I want to snog," Amanda said, in between the kisses she placed on my lips.

"I can tell," I laughed, kissing her back and spinning us around so we were both in the warm spray of the shower water.

We kissed again and we heard feet running downstairs as we snogged.

"Sounds like a child is awake," I mentioned. Amanda turned the water off and she handed me a towel.

"That means we have to get out," she replied, drying herself off with a towel. She deliberately leaned over enough that I could see her privates as she dried herself.

"You're a tease," I commented, trying myself off with the towel that Amanda had handed me. I wrapped it underneath my armpits and I got out of the shower. Amanda did the same and we returned to our bedroom.

Amanda put on a sports bra as she was no longer wearing the bandage around her chest and a pair of knickers. I put on an old, comfortable bra and knickers.

I put on a pair of jean shorts and a white shirt. A quick, simple outfit was all I needed for today. I tossed my hair into a ponytail, not wanting to deal with it until the afternoon when I had to wash it.

Amanda put on a pair of sweat shorts that came dangerously close to exposing part of her arse. She put on a old black shirt and brushed her hair, pulling it into a messy bun.

"You know how much of a tease you are, wearing those shorts, babe?" I asked her.

"'Course I do. That's why I wear them, baby."

《a.a.》

Hey guys! I'm so tired right now that I didn't want to publish a new chapter but I didn't want to let you guys down because I know that you like this. I'm debating about making a Christmas oneshot for this story and I don't know if I should or not because I'm already going to be publishing something new on Christmas eve for you guys. Should I make a oneshot for these two?

What did you like about this chapter? What do you think is going to happen in the last chapter? Next chapter is the last one in this book. Bye until the next chapter!