i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter twenty one]

Amanda

"ALESHA, I WANT TO do something that covers up my scars," I said as we cuddled in bed a month after we made love for the first time since my double mastectomy.

"Like what?" She asked me in reply.

"I want to get a tattoo that covers one of them," I responded.

"Where will you place it though?" She asked, her hand trailing down to my stomach and then resting there as we laid in bed. "And what will it be?"

"It'll be right here and go upwards," I replied, lifting my pyjama shirt to show off my breasts and marked out the trail it would follow from where my left nipple had been to underneath my collar bone. "And I want it to be four sunflowers."

"Why sunflowers?" Alesha inquired as I pulled my pyjama shirt back down.

"Because you're always singing that sun song to me and sunflowers symbolize the sun so I always want that on me and four sunflowers for my family. One for you on my nipple, close to my heart because of how much I love you, one for Lexi, one for Hollie, and one for Azura," I exolained. I had thought it all out and I wanted to get the tattoo because of how meaningful it was.

"Maybe I'll get one on my breast or somewhere near it that shows how much I love you too," Alesha said.

"Do it if you really want it," I encouraged her.

《h.d.》

My sweatshirt was unzipped, exposing my bare breast to the tattoo artist as she put the first sunflower on me, exactly where my left nipple had been and where I had a large scar.

Alesha had gone to get her tattoo done yesterday and she told me where she had put it. Alesha had gotten her tattoo just underneath her breast but I didn't know what it was of because she wanted to show me it when mine was completely healed.

The reason why I was getting my tattoo was not because I wanted to cover up my scars but to show were I was now and where I had been when I had breast cancer. The tattoo already meant so much to me and it wasn't done. I still had to get the three other sunflowers tattoo onto my chest.

I looked at what the tattoo artist was drawing onto my skin and she had already finished the outline of the first sunflower and was working on the second one that would be above the one where my nipple had been. Already I was in love with the tattoo and it wasn't completed yet.

The outline of the sunflower was beautiful and dark coloured with a black ink. There were crosshatches where my nipples had been exactly and the petals were where my areola had been.

It was beautiful to me and it wasn't coloured yet.

It wasn't that painful to the tattoo as Alesha had said it would be but she also had a low pain tolerance except when she gave birth to her daughter Azura.

Azura had been born naturally and at home because of how quickly Alesha went into labour and felt her already starting to emerge when her boyfriend at the time was trying to call the midwife to tell her that Alesha was in labour. Azura's birth had been completely unplanned to be natural as Alesha had wanted to get an epidural but that didn't happen with the speed of her labour.

Alesha was still brought to the hospital after Azura was born and I was one of the first to go visit her. She had been one of the first after the ordeal I went through trying to give birth to my daughter Hollie.

We both hadn't realized that we already loved each other then but now we did.

I loved Alesha so much and I knew that I wanted to marry her someday but I didn't know when or how I would. It would just be funny if we proposed to each other in unison like we had asked each other to be each other's girlfriend.

I looked at my tattoo again and the tattoo artist was just finishing the outline of the second flower and starting on the third. I hadn't realized my tattoo would be so quick but it still had to be coloured and the fourth one had to be inked onto my skin.

《h.d.》

"I want to see the tattoo, Alesha," I begged a week after my tattoo had been completed. The tattoo on my left breast was beautiful and I loved what it stood for to me. I had already shown it to Alesha as soon as I could take the bandage that kept out infection off.

"I'll show it to you," she replied. Alesha took off her shirt and then unclipped her bra but didn't take it off. She glanced at me and I knew what she wanted me to do. Alesha wanted me to take her white bra off of her so I did.

Her nipples stood erect as the air hit them, a trait Alesha hated. Before my mastomecty, mine had been like that when I had nipples and they would be erect if it was just cold in the room and I wasn't wearing a bra with my outfit.

"Read what the tattoo says," Alesha told me. She lifted her breast up and I read the tattoo that was underneath her breast.

It read, 'i'm gonna love you through it,' and there was a pink ribbon at the end of the phrase.

"Alesha, did you really get this for me because of what I went through?" I asked her, looking her in the eyes.

"Yes I did because I love you, Amanda, and I've loved you through everything that you've gone through during the past five months we've been a couple," she replied, her lips kissing mine gently. "And I'm going to keep loving you through it."

"I love you too, Alesha," I replied quietly and our foreheads touched as she grabbed my waist and pulled me close to her and into a deep kiss.

THE END

《a.a.》

Hey guys! I ran out of time in the day yesterday to write an author's note and publish the last chapter. I hope that you guys like the ending of this fanfic! I enjoyed writing it so much and it was so much fun to write. CallMeMatthias put up with me again babbling on about this fanfic and you still need to read it!

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