i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter five]

Amanda

I HAD DEFINITELY SHOCKED Alesha by coming out to her because I could see it on her face. She hadn't even been able to suspect that I was bisexual as well because I had hidden it from everyone.

Everyone didn't know that I was bisexual except for my ex husband, Chris, and now Alesha knew. I knew that it was a risk telling her that I had a crush on her but there are moments when I've thought that Alesha has romantic feelings for me.

I didn't want to push her to tell me that she had a crush, if she did have one so I didn't ask her if she was crushing on me. That was too personal to ask Alesha. She would tell me on her own time if she had a crush on me.

Alesha was going to be spending the night at my house because I knew that I would end up crying at some point tonight and I would need someone to comfort me. Alesha was the best at being able to comfort me because she knew me so well.

She had left a few minutes ago to go to her home and get pyjamas and clothes for tomorrow. I had told her that I would find something for us to eat but I had no idea what I could make for us. There was almost nothing in my refrigerator but things that I could make a pizza with.

I had a pre-made crust for pizza in the grain cupboard in my kitchen from when Hollie, Lexi, and I made pizza last week for dinner. I could make Alesha and I a pizza for dinner, I finally decided.

《h.d.》

I heard Alesha knocking at the door just after I put the pizza into the oven. I opened the door for her and I stepped aside so she could come in.

"I'm back. Sorry it took a little longer than I expected. I had to pick my daughter, Azura up from daycare and bring her to her father's house," Alesha apologized.

"Don't apologize, Alesha. That stuff can't be helped," I replied as Alesha came in and started to go upstairs with her backpack that held her clothes.

Alesha was in a similar situation that I was with our children. We weren't in relationships with their fathers and that made us both single mothers. We had often vented to each other about this situation, much to Simon and David's amusement but Simon could relate to it.

Simon had his son, Eric, and he was a single dad. Lauren had broken up with Simon shortly after she gave birth to their son and gave Simon full custody of Eric who had just been three months old at the time. Simon came to me for help with raising Eric because he didn't know how to be a parent at all. Eric had caught him by surprise and this was an even bigger surprise. Simon had to be taught how to do everything from how to feed Eric to how to potty train him.

Alesha now had to do that with her daughter, Azura but she had it harder. Azura was autistic and she didn't like change at all. Alesha was raising her daughter for two weeks out of the month by herself and then Azura went to her father's house for the rest of the month.

"I know," Alesha said. "What are we going to have for dinner?"

"Pizza. Do you want to watch a movie while we eat?" I asked as I went to the kitchen to start cleaning up the mess that I made while preparing the pizza to go into the oven.

"Sure. Should I pick one out then?" Alesha asked, poking her head through the doorway of the kitchen.

"Yeah. You can pick what ever you want to watch that I have," I replied, putting dishes into the dishwasher.

《h.d.》

"Amanda?" Alesha asked as we were getting into my bed later that night after the movie we had watched ended. "There's something I want to talk to you about."

"What is it that you want to talk about?" I replied as I climbed into bed and Alesha got in beside me, laying on her side.

"I want to talk to you about what you told me this afternoon," Alesha responded.

"My crush on you?" I asked, turning onto my side so I could face Alesha as we talked.

"Yes. That's exactly what I want to talk about and it's because," Alesha spoke and then paused before continuing, "because I've had the same feelings for you since we had a little snog on BGT for a viewer's question."

I knew that my eyes widened from shock. I hadn't expected Alesha to hold romantic feelings for me, much less have a crush on me.

"Have you really?" I asked in disbelief. This had been a fantasy of mine that Alesha would have a crush on me while I had a crush on her.

"Yes so there's something that I want to ask you," Alesha spoke.

"I want to ask you something too," I replied.

"We should say what we want to ask each other at the same time," Alesha said. "On three."

She counted and we said in unison, "would you be my-my g-girlfriend?"

Alesha laughed and replied, "yes, 'Manda, I would love to be your girlfriend."

I grinned at my new girlfriend. I had already gotten her in my bed, not that it had taken much to do but we had done this before. We had slept in the same bed with each other during an audition city each year because we liked each other's company.

"What are you grinning at, Mandy?" Alesha asked, chuckling a bit.

"You," I replied, turning onto my side and Alesha moved closer to me so we were spooning. She kissed my cheek and I quickly was able to fall asleep as Alesha held me in her arms.

《a.a.》

Hey guys! How sweet was this chapter?! I had so much fun writing this chapter because of the fluff in it. I almost forgot to update IGLYTI today because I'm trying to figure out the last chapter which I'm writing right now. And I'm also working on a damon fanfic that's entirely all songfics for the chapters.

I've got the first chapter written and I'm going to write the second tonight and finish the last chapter of IGLYTI. I'll publish the context and I'll post the cover here! Bye until the next chapter!

Here's the cover!