i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter eight]

Alesha

AMANDA WAS GOING TO have her mastomecty this afternoon and I was nervous for her. I didn't know how much they were planning to take but last night Amanda had told me that they only planned to take the lump out and then remove the breast tissue of her other breast because if the chance that the cancer could come back within five years.

She didn't want to take that risk so she was having both sets of breast tissue removed but the doctors were going to try to save her nipples and the milk ducts if they could.

Amanda had gone into the operating room five minutes ago and Hollie, Lexi, and Azura were with me. Lexi was a natural with helping me to take care of Azura and keeping her from running around the family waiting room. Hollie was sitting in my lap, hugging me tightly.

"Is my mummy going to be okay?" She asked me, looking up at me.

"Yes, she is going to be okay after this, Hollie, but she has to get special medicine after the surgery to make sure all of her cancer is gone," I replied, hugging the little girl back. She was practically trembling with nervousness for her mother and she couldn't help it. Hollie was extremely close to her mother and she had taken it the hardest when Amanda and I told the girls about Amanda's breast cancer.

"What's mum going to look like after the surgery?" Lexi asked me as she got Azura to sit down to play with her beads.

My daughter, Azura, loved all types of beads and buttons. Anything that was small enough to fit in her hand and she could count. It was the first thing that I had noticed before she had been diagnosed with autism. I had looked up the symptoms when Azura was about the age of two and I had noticed that she had most of them but her doctor was saying that she didn't and wouldn't test her for it. I eventually went to another doctor and he had said that Azura had autism.

"I don't know. I think she's mostly going to be more flat than me on her chest but she's going to have tubes coming out of her sides," I replied to Lexi. I poked fun at how small my own breasts were and that made Lexi laugh. Her chest was already bigger than mine and she was already nearing the size of her mum so she knew that if Amanda was going to be flat, then she was flatter than me.

"Are you nervous about what mum is going to look like, Alesha?" Lexi asked me as she got down from her chair and started to help Azura sort her beads.

"A little. She is my girlfriend after all," I responded. Amanda and I told the girls and Azura about us dating yesterday and it had gone well. Hollie loved that I was dating Amanda and she had been cuddling up to me last night while I was trying to help Amanda get our daughters to bed.

"Why did you start dating mummy?" Hoilie asked. I hadn't been asked this question when Simon and David were questioning Amanda and I about us dating while we were going to deliberations.

"Because I have a crush on her and she has a crush on me. I was falling in love with your mummy and I still am. Just don't tell her that yet. I want to tell her myself," I replied. I really was falling hard for Amanda and it was showing each day because we were making love to each other everyday while our children were at school and it showed last night because I had been even more loving to Amanda in bed.

She and her girls spent the night at my house because that was were Amanda was going to recover because of how much help Amanda was going to need. She wouldn't be able to wash her hair by herself, she wouldn't be able to cook much, she would need someone to help her get dressed and there was only so much that Lexi and Hollie could do for her. I was going to be doing the things that Hollie and Lexi couldn't do for Amanda.

One of the surgeons came out of the operating room and motioned for me to speak with him. I got Hollie off of my lap and I followed him out into the hallway.

"Is something wrong?" I asked, starting to worry.

"Yes. The cancer is worse than what we thought. It's spread more than what we had anticipated so we have to remove Amanda's milk ducts and her nipples for the best chance of the cancer being gone," the surgeon replied. "It has been going well though so far and when Amanda comes out, please try not to shock her by staring at her chest when she's in recovery."

"I'll try and I'll tell the girls not to," I responded.

"We have to take more than what we initially planned so the double mastectomy will take longer than anticipated," the doctor told me before he walked back into the operating room.

"Thank you for telling me," I replied as I walked back to the family waiting room. Now I had to tell the girls that the doctors had to take more than what they planned for Amanda.

"Hollie, Lexi, the doctor just told me something that I want you to hear," I spoke to the girls.

"What is it?" Lexi asked me as they both looked at me with curiosity.

"The doctors have to take more than what they've planned so your mum's chest is going to be flatter than what it would have been. The doctor has asked us not to stare at it when Amanda comes out and she's in recovery," I announced.

Amanda was going to be flatter than what any of us had expected, especially her. Amanda had gone into the mastomecty thinking that she would still have a little of her breast but now she wasn't going to have anything left except for the skin on them.

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Hey guys! I might be getting my own laptop so I could be able to write my fanfics if I get it. I have it in my backpack today because I've been carrying it around for my friend who is trying to sell it so that means I get to work on my novel for NaNoWriMo today.

What do you think Amanda's reaction is going to be when she sees her chest and when Alesha sees it? What did you guys like about this chapter? Thanks for reading and please comment what you loved. Bye until the next chapter!