i'm gonna love you through it | alemanda ✔

[chapter ten]

Alesha

DAVID AND SIMON WERE going to visit our house today to see Amanda and I had come up with an idea for something like a tribute for Amanda. I wanted to discuss it over with them and get both of the men on board with doing it for her.

I wanted to make a video of Amanda's journey with breast cancer and have it shown at the final. I had already gotten some pictures and video done for it and waiting to be put it but Simon would have to agree to the idea and get a video editor on the BGT to make it. The video would be shown during the final, which would also be when Amanda and I would tell the public about us.

Only our parents, David, Simon, and our children knew that we were dating. Amanda hadn't come out to the public yet as being bisexual but I already had. We both wanted to out to the public as a couple but it wasn't the right time yet.

Simon and David came over to see Amanda and I the afternoon after Amanda and I got back from her first round of chemotherapy and the first doctor's appointment at the hospital a couple of days prior. Amanda grinned as soon as she saw them both come in to the living room where she was laying on the couch.

"Hey. How have you been feeling, Mandy?" Simon asked as he sat down in a chair opposite from the couch. I sat down beside Amanda laying on the couch as there was just enough room for me to be next to her.

"Better but I still feel like crap," she replied. "I had the first round of chemo three days ago."

"And the next round is next week," I added.

"How many rounds do you have to do?" David asked Amanda.

"Five," Amanda responded, "and then we can start to think about reconstruction for this."

Amanda gestured to her flat chest and both David and Simon looked down in shock. Amanda had put a blanket over herself to hide the fact she was so flat but she had pushed it down. David and Simon hadn't noticed her chest until she had pushed the blanket down and gestured to it.

"Aren't you supposed to still have small bumps left where your breasts where before the mastectomy?" Simon asked bluntly. He was in the same amount of shock that I had been when the nurse had taken off the compression bandage around her chest and we had seen how flat Amanda was.

"I was going to still have some of my breasts left but the doctors had to take more than what they had planned originally," Amanda replied. "Alesha and I were both shocked when the swelling went down."

"How bad has the pain been?" David asked, his eyes looking at Amanda's chest and then flicked up to look at her.

"Not too bad but painful enough for me to take medication and it's prevented cuddling," Amanda replied, chuckling at the end of her sentence.

"How mad did that make you, Alesha, that you couldn't cuddle Amanda?" David asked, laughing.

"Extremely but I knew why she was in pain so we've already found ways that we can cuddle comfortably," I responded.

《h.d.》

Cuddling was difficult for us at night because Amanda couldn't lay on her side like she normally did, making us unable to spoon. I usually now put my head onto Amanda's shoulder while I laid on my side and she would put an arm around my body. Amanda frequently kissed my forehead while we were in this position and that was how we were now laying.

"When can we make love again?" I asked Amanda as she moved a piece of hair out of my face to behind my ear.

"When I get cleared by the doctor," Amanda responsed, placing a kiss on my forehead. "Why?"

"Because I want to be able to make love to you again," I replied.

"Is it because I keep getting you horny when we snog?" Amanda asked me, worry filling her brown eyes.

"A little but I know that you get horny too when we snog," I responded, lifting my head from Amanda's shoulder and kissing her lips gently and then putting my head back onto her shoulder.

"How do you know that I get horny when we snog?" Amanda asked incredulously, a slight blush starting to tint her cheeks.

"I'm your girlfriend. I notice when you get horny. You squirm when you get horny, babe," I replied as I smirked at Amanda. She blushed a deeper red and began to laugh.

Amanda protested, still laughing, "I don't squirm that much!"

"Yes, you do, babe," I replied, bringing my hands to Amanda's sides and began to tickle her. Amanda laughed and squirmed, trying to get away from me tickling her. "You squirm that much when you get horny, babe!" I said, starting to laugh.

"I c-can't b-reathe!" Amanda laughed out as she tried to remove my hands from tickling her sides. The only way that she could retaliate was by tickling me and so she did.

I started to laugh at Amanda's tickling and she started to tickle my stomach. The one.place where I was the most ticklish other than the back of my knees. Amanda started to crack up at my laughter and she cackled.

"Stop it!" I laughed as Amanda tickled me.

"I'm not going to stop!" Amanda replied, tickling me even harder so I couldn't breathe from laughing so hard.

"I c-can't b-breathe!" I laughed so Amanda finally stopped tickling me. My sides hurt from laughing and I was sure Amanda's were too. We hadn't laughed that hard since the BGT auditions, back before Amanda had the double mastectomy.

We got back into the same position that were we laying in and I felt Amanda's steady breathing as she fell asleep a couple of minutes later.

《a.a.》

Hey guys! I now can use my chromebook so I can write on that. I've been working so hard on Just a Dream for NaNoWriMo but I haven't got to work on it yet today except for finishing a chapter for the sequel that I'm working into the first book.

That probably makes no sense at all to you guys but it makes sense in my mind. Thank for reading and what did you love about this chapter? Bye until the next chapter!