Choosing Mr. Destiny (boyxboy) [To Be Edited]

"Chapter 31" ✔️

Arthur looking hot as always 😍

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Ashley's POV

To say I was sore the next morning was a huge understatement. I feel like I was torn in half with how he animalistically thrust himself into me. It was fast and hard I can't even wrap my head around the fact how he did it. On the other hand, I wouldn't say I didn't like it because obviously, I did. I mean if my moan that could rival that was of a porn star doesn't explain it, then I don't know what is.

Just thinking about last night was making me blush like a maniac. It was magical, I didn't know making love with someone would be that awesome.

However, even with the immense pleasure I felt, I won't deny the fact that I was terrified. Not because of the obvious reasons that I was very inexperienced, nor the fact that it was my first time. I mean sure, I was also partly terrified because of those factors, but one major thought was the main reason why I was scared out of my mind. It was because of my past. The traumatic past that I always try to forget and move forward from.

Honestly, I was debating whether I should let Arthur go all the way. I was scared I would suddenly throw a panic attack; well, almost, and end up scaring Arthur in the process and make him question me about it. I know it has been a few years since that incident, and I should've fully moved on by now. But the truth is, it still; up to this very day, haunts me like an unwanted memory stuck in my mind in an eternal loop. I can't seem to get rid of it even with how hard I tried to.

That day will always be embedded in my mind until my last breath. The day that made me feel so vulnerable and helpless.

But I know with time I'll manage to finally manage to do so. But how much time do I need? I spent all those years trying to get my life back together as I also tried to act as if nothing happened. It was something I hid from everyone. Something I tried to avoid to be brought up.

And because of that, it almost affected the relationship I'm slowly starting to grow with the person I'm destined to be with. I was finding it hard to trust someone again. And even though I know Arthur will never hurt me, just the fact that I'm letting him in makes me terrified. I don't want him to be disgusted of me. I don't want him to hate me because of this. I don't want anyone to treat me differently because of my most hidden secret.

So maybe, just maybe, it's time to reveal this secret and release myself from all this emotional burden that monster has caused me.

Maybe then, I will finally find real peace.

Sighing, I closed my eyes as I pushed those thoughts at the back of my mind for the time being. For now, I have to enjoy what I have, especially now that Arthur and I have connected with each other to a whole new level.

Turning my head towards the window, I noticed the sun is now high up in the sky, telling me it's already late in the morning. And here I am, still in the bed, trying not to wince whenever I make one sudden movement. It was uncomfortable to be very honest, but it was all worth it. I didn't know it could be that pleasurable and amazing. Well for one, I was a virgin and I didn't know the real feeling, and two, I was very inexperienced.

But heck, I would love to do it with him over and over again.

Thirsty much? I don't even care.

Well, sorry not sorry but my butthole got super needy when I finally got the taste of 10 inches.

Too many details.

Meanwhile, Arthur was in the kitchen probably cooking something for breakfast for both of us. I didn't notice him getting out of bed because I was deep in sleep.