When I came home I went straight to my room. Tears were falling and falling. Those were tears I was keeping inside of me for a long time. I was sitting on my bed and crying when I suddenly heard a knock on my door. The door opened and Emma was standing there worried.
She came to me and hugged me tightly. It made me cry even more. I told her what happened and she told me that I should've talked to him. Even tho it sounds impossible for me to take I think she is right. I can't be mad at him forever. I need to face him, to talk to him, but it would be hard because when I saw him all the pain I was keeping somewhere deep inside of me, trying to forget him, found the way to my heart again and it hurts like hell.
I was still crying and Emma was sitting next to me.
,,You can't spend all day crying.'' I just looked at her.
,, We came here to have fun, not to cry!'' She is right, like always.
,,C'mon. Dress up nicely and come downstairs for breakfast, and after breakfast we are gonna have fun.'' I just smiled at her and she left my room.
I decided to wear light, ripped jeans, cute white T-Shirt and black, leather jacket. I went downstairs to the kitchen and the table was full of my favorite food and Jin and Emma were already sitting there. I sat next to Jin and we started eating. After breakfast Jin left to work and Emma and I went to big shopping center. Shopping heals everything.
There we were walking, talking and buying a lot of things. It was 5PM when we were done there. Then we decided to go to a little cafe next the beautiful lake. There we ordered coffee and we talked a lot. She was trying to make me feel better, but Yoongi was still on my mind.
She noticed that I was distracted by my thoughts so she started talking.
,,You should meet him again.''I just looked at her confused.
,,Y/N it's been 5 years, don't act like a child. You are an adult now, you have to deal with that problem. I know it hurts but you would feel better if you talk to him.'' She is right. I have to talk to him.
After more talking and laughing we decided to go home. Jin is already home so we wanted to spend some time with him
When we got home it was dinner time. Emma and I were laughing while coming to living room. Jin was sitting there on the couch but not alone. Yoongi was there. My smile faded when I saw him, my heart started beating fast and I didn't know what to do.
,, He is staying here for dinner. I invited him.'' Jin said. I just looked at him confused.
,, Emma would you like to come with me to buy dinner? I didn't had time to make one.'' He looked at Emma and winked at her. She blushed, smiled and nodded.
They left and Yoongi and I were alone.
,,Hey Y/N.'' He said while standing up.
,,Hey'' I was avoiding his gaze.
,,How are you doing?'' He asked.
,,Very good. How about you?'' I said while sitting at the couch. I remembered Emmas words and they were encouraging me.
,, Good, very good.......''
Akward silence.... but after some time he decided to break it.
,,How was in America? Did you meet someone there?''
,, It was great. I finished college there and met Emma, the girl before. We came here yesterday. We are looking for jobs. How are you, your gang?'' I wasn't that scared anymore. I wanted to know things about him.
,, I am not in the gang anymore. I reported them to the police.'' He said and looked down.
,,Why?'' I looked at him in shook.
,, They were killing people. They were making me kill people. That's why we broke up. I was scared that people from other gangs would come after you and hurt you because we were killing their people. And I didn't wanted you to live with a murderer.''
Tears started forming in my eyes. I knew that he lied that night. I felt it.
He came closer to me and took my hands in his. I looked at him and he was about to cry. I never saw him crying.
,, What I said that night was a lie. I loved you then and I still do. I know I hurted you but I had to do that. I'm so sorry. I know that you're not gonna forgive me that fast, but let's try over. Let's become friends again. Please.'' I was looking at him while teas were falling down my face.
I want to start over with him. I missed him. I just nodded and smiled. He smiled back and hugged me. I hugged him back and it felt amazing. I missed his touch, his smell, everything about him.
After that we talked a lot. He told me about his studio and rap carrier. He seem very happy and it makes me happy too.
Jin and Emma came back after short time. All 4 of us had dinner. After dinner we decided to watch a movie. We had so much fun that night. It was very late when Emma and Jin fall asleep on the couch and Yoongi was about to leave. I followed him to the door. He went out and looked at me. My heart started beating so fast when he started coming closer.
,,Goodnight beautiful.'' He said with sexy voice and left a kiss on my cheek. He smirked and left. God what is this boy doing to me. I felt like my heart was about to jump out of my chest. I am falling for him over again, even more than before.
