This is a continuation of my story about my struggle with depression, anxiety, attempt of suicide, and an eating disorder.
First I'd like to start with pictures.
I remember the day I chose this dress for Easter 2016.
All I did was walk into the store and pick the first long-sleeved dress I saw. I tried it on, and the first thing I did was look at my arms to make sure my cuts were not visible.
All of this was less than a week after I first cut.
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This picture was taken on Awards' Day, May 2016. During this time, I was struggling with the binge eating eating disorder and nearly fell into a second eating disorder of excessive exercise.
Can you see how fake my smile was? Can you see how I was only smiling because I was currently being looked at by a crowd of parents that could only see the outside but not the inside?
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This was the summer of 2016. During this summer, I had started to get better. I was overcoming my eating disorder, but I was still constantly obsessed over my weight.
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book about my insanity
Randomin which you get to hear me scream about Broadway musicals-mainly Newsies. added note: also please ignore the absolute disaster of the first several parts. i was young and very cringy.