Joshifer: Four Years of Affection

Chapter 5

~Jennifer's POV

I was surprised that Josh and Jo seemed to mean to get away from me when I was approaching them. I went home afterwards, when Jo texted me once more.

JO: Sorry I wasn't able to say goodbye a while ago, Josh seemed to have a problem.

JEN: No, it's okay. But what is his problem?

I waited for a long time, but there was no answer.

JEN: It's okay, Jo, if you won't tell me. I was just a little concerned. Bye.

I lied down at my bed, thinking that Josh is mad at me for a reason, but Jo seemed to be the ray of hope for me.

JO: It's not that, it's just that he won't tell me, either.

JEN: I think he's mad at me.

JO: I don't think so, Jen. Maybe it's an emergency or something. He seemed to be rushing a while ago.

JEN: Well, just tell him that if it's my fault that he is angry, then I'm really sorry for it. I will try to do what he likes as long as I get his forgiveness.

JO: I'll try, but I guess it will take a while if it's about you, Jen, which I hope is not.

I can't say anything anymore, since I was struck by what Jo said.

"...but I guess it will take a while if it's about you, Jen..."

What does she mean? Is he rough with his friends? Is he trying to protect me or something? Am I being an idiot? Is it that hard to forgive me? If she knows that I'm shy to tell Josh that I have feelings for him, then does that mean that I have to say that I love him before he forgives me?

If he only knows that I want that moment under the stars be repeated over and over again,

If he only knows that I think of him when I feel sad, wondering if he'll be there to sweep me off my feet and erase my problems,

If he only knows that he is very special to me,

If he only knows that I love him.

But then, something popped into my mind. Nick.

Nick was sweet, charming, and nice when we had the little talk at detention. We almost had the same likes, and he's also good-looking. I just don't know if I love him just as much as I love Josh.....

I can't help it, I didn't know that loving a person was this hard. When I realized, if at least one of them loves me the way I love them, then let's wait until Valentine's Day.

~Josh's POV

Jo totally got me hypnotized, she tricked me into thinking that Jen loves me back. That's why I went away from Jennifer. I couldn't help it. I was getting jealous and sad. Even Jo isn't helping. Thinking of Jo makes me think of Jen, since Jo told me that there could be a possibility that Jen loves me.

"Josh, please let me in. I want to talk to you." Jo tells outside my door while banging it.

"Go away, I don't want to talk to anyone." I tell her, teary-eyed.

I'm crying. I couldn't believe it. I'm jealous of Nick getting Jen's attention. We've been friends for a month now, but Nick seems to get Jen's serious attention. They looked so sweet a while ago, and even if I don't exactly know what they're talking about, I know that it could be about what they have in common, which is a lot. I was distracted by the sound of my doorknob twisting.

"Josh, I'm sorry for barging in, but I need to." Jo tells me while closing my door.

"What are you doing, Jo?" I tell her, still crying a little bit.