Big Time POV Switch

Carlos's POV: Natural Feelings, Thoughts Racing

*Carlos’s POV*

                A quiet drive turned into a loud one, which turned into fighting, which turned back into silence. And though I’m excited and extremely grateful that we are going to see Addie today, again, the only thing on my mind is Alexa. I want her hand, and I want to have the honor of calling her my wife.

                I tried my best at the moment to push her to the back of my mind, however, so that I could focus on the girl who today is all about-my beautiful adopted daughter Adele. I missed her so much, but I don’t deal with grief the way the others do. Kendall was in hysterics, Logan was pissed off all the time, and James just shut down. I went about my everyday routines with a hardened heart. My body has been here the whole time by I haven’t.

                I noticed a sign that was just at our last exit that was for a gas station. “Hey James,” I spoke up breaking the silence; “We should stop and get gas, and get some snacks.”

                “That’s a good idea, we’re almost on empty, I can’t believe I let the tank get that low,” he said to himself.

                We pulled off the road into the driveway and parking lot of the service station. James parked at a pump and the other three of us went inside to pee and buy food.

                I went to the back of the store and got a Snapple Tea for Kendall and sodas for James, Logan, and myself. I met Kendall and Logan at the register, they had our snacks. I paid the guy behind the counter for our stuff and then walked out, with the other two trailing behind in silence. For some reason it felt weird to talk, and the silence felt normal.

                I guess we were all just lost in our heads at this point, but anyone in our situation would be. It’s natural for even the most perfect or rational minds to go a little insane when there is a lot going on in said person’s life. Right now I kind of felt like screaming, just to get out all the shit that’s bottled up inside my thoughts. Alexa. Addie. Demi. That little girl Bree…

                I’m stressing and I don’t need to be doing that, I need to keep my cool for my Addie. I got back in the car, this time in the back seat; it was now Logan’s turn to drive for a bit, and that meant that Kendall would most likely be sitting shotgun-those two have been inseparable lately.

                I opened up a bag of chips and started to eat them mindlessly. I didn’t even know that we had begun to pull out into the road or drive at all really. I was zoning, because I knew we were only a few minutes away from Adele now, and I couldn’t wait to see my baby girl.