Strong my darling - Niall Horan

- 31 - i miss you

This is a really crappy chapter btw I just wanted to keep you fuys updated 😕

-Chapter 31-

^ Maeve's pov ^

We got out just about 20 min ago from the studio. We were in the car Niall was begging Liam to stop and get something to eat.

" please just .... LOOK THERES NANDOS PLEASE STOP" Niall was jumping in his seat

" fine fine but we're doing a drive through "Liam said Turing into NANDOS

" hey do any of you know what day it Is " I asked thinking of something

" uh it's the 1st why ? " tears forming in my eyes.

" uh nothing " I looked out the window

They ordered and picked it up .

Once we got home I went inside dropped my bag

" I'm going for a bike ride be back soon " I said then ran and grabbed Niall's bike

I headed down a familiar road there's my house.

It was boarded up , I parked my bike and went to the back door , I used all my strength to hit the wood down a I did . I walked through to my old house. I walked up stairs and went into my room there was really nothing in there but some pictures and random stuff. I was looking at the pictures and found one with him and I laughing in the couch. I put it into my bag . I found one with my dad and I at my dance comp.

Yeas I did Irish step when I was young . I ripped it up and let some tears fall.

I walked down and out of that hell hole. When I was walking I heard some laughing. Me being me went over and looked . Nikki and tena were with some boys at her pool . My blood started boiling I grabbed a rock and through it into her pool splashing the girls . I couldn't help but giggle.

" OMFG WHO JUST SPLASHED ME !" Niki screamed I started laughing

" who's there !?" Tena heard me laugh.

I ran to my bike and screamed " IM NIKI AND IM A BIG ASS SLUT WHO SLEEPS WITH EVERY BOY MY EYES SEE"

" ...... MAEVE " Nikki screamed but she couldn't catch me.

I was riding until I got to the grave yard. I rode down the hill and took a deep breath.

I closed my eyes and the natural water and trees filled my nose.

I walked over to my grandfathers grave.

" Daddy Paul it's been 5 years today since you left . 5 years since I saw you last . 5 years since I was happy " I cried

" why !!" I cried

" this is crazy but I'm going to sing you a song I wrote 2 years ago " I said and sat right next to his grave

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven

You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer

And now I'm living out my dream

Oh how I wish you could see

Everything that's happening for me

I'm thinking back on the past

It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you

I know you're in a better place, yeah

But I wish that I could see your face, oh

I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you, sha la la la la

I miss you

I was crying until I just started to think next to his grave.

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So yeah my life sucks.. I think it's all just a stupid joke. I replay my life every single day.

Wake up

Get dressed

Go downstairs

Pack my lunch

Brush my teeth and hair

Go to school

Pretend I'm happy

Laugh along with the jokes that really

just make me hate myself even more

My friend hate me

I smile and pretend to be happy

Mentally have a brake down

Carry on through the school day

Get ready to go home

Get hurt

Want to runaway

My friends laugh at me

I go home

Go to my room

Turn up my music

Cry

Do homework

Take a shower

Think about my day

Cry

Fall asleep

Do the same fucking thing. Hate it ! I hate everything . I have had it . I don't have anyone to talk to. I want to move far away and start over. I want to be happy. I want to have a friend. Someone who I can be myself

Around with our being judged. With out being called names. Everyone know me as the weird, dumb , fat , ugly , annoying etc girl . I want to be me . I can't take it. I just don't know what to do!

Love Maeve . Xx

😪😕💔

Make sure your having a good night cause I'm not