dear diary | shefani

Entry Twelve

Entry Twelve

Dear Diary,

Pharrell told me lunch was pretty awkward after Alicia and I left. Honestly, it still sounds better than my conversation with Alicia.

We walk to the girls bathroom. Once we get there, Alicia slams the door shut and locks it. "What the hell is happening?"

I become defensive. "What do you mean?"

"I mean," Alicia huffs. "What is going on between you and Blake?"

"Nothing," I say. "We're just friends."

"People like us aren't 'just friends' with people like them," Alicia claims.

I roll my eyes. "What are you talking about? We are just friends, nothing else! Who cares if he sits with us. None of this shit will matter when we graduate in a few months!"

"I'm pretty sure friends don't sleep together," she sneers.

"Why are you being so bitchy all of the sudden?" I retort.

"I'm being realistic, Gwen," she states. "Look, I don't want to see you get hurt. He's probably just using you for your body, just like Gavin. Boys like that are not worth it."

I feel my anger boiling. "Don't bring up Gavin. He has nothing to do with this."

"I'm just warning you," Alicia shrugs.

"I think I can take care of myself," I spit.

Alicia sighs. "Gwen, really. I'm just trying to look out for you. I don't want another worthless boy to break your heart again. What happened with Gavin was a really bad time for you, and I don't want to see you go through that again."

"Yeah," I mutter. "I know."

Alicia pulls me in for a hug. "I'm sorry I'm coming off as mean. I just care about you a lot, you know?"

"I know," I give her a weak smile.

"Come on," Alicia tugs my arm. "Let's go before people think we're making out or something."

I know Alicia is just trying to look out for me. Sometimes she just shows it a little weirdly. But, now that Alicia mentioned that damned name, I can't stop thinking about him.

Gavin treated me like a piece of shit. Heck, wasn't it just a few weeks ago that I had decided teenage boys weren't even worth it? How come Blake had the power to change that thought so suddenly?

Maybe Alicia's right. Blake could possibly be another Gavin-just hotter. Why should I trust him, just to have my heart broken? Things are already starting off weird, due to the fact that we've already slept together. Perhaps this is just one of those flings; never to be talked about again,

I will admit that I like Blake. I guess I'll continue to do this friendship thing with him. If we decide to take it further, then fine. But, he'll have to go ahead and break my heart from the very start. I'm not going through another Gavin situation again.

Until next time,
Gx

Vote and comment, please ;)