dear diary | shefani

Entry Seventeen

Entry Seventeen

Dear Diary,

"Gwen, can we talk?" Blake asks me after lunch.

"Sure! Just...make it kinda quick. I have to get to class." I say.

"Oh," Blake suddenly looks embarrassed. "Right. I was wondering if you would like to go to the dance with me?"

My heart stopped-literally. Look, I think I'm really falling for Blake; but I don't think it would ever work out. He's just too good for me. Besides, high school is already complicated enough.

So, of course, my dumbass ran away once he asked me to the dance.

Stupid! I am so fucking stupid! I don't know why, but I felt scared. Images of Gavin flashed into my head, and I couldn't handle it. I know Blake isn't like Gavin, he's nothing like him. But, it seems that I can't control my thoughts.

"What do you mean you ran away?!" Behati scolds me after I tell her what happened.

"I-I panicked!" I cry.

"Of what?" Behati sneers. "Of Blake? It's Blake, for crying out loud. He'd never hurt you!"

"I know that," I reply. "That doesn't mean that I don't have a bad past with other men."

"Well, what are you going to do now?" Cara asks me. "You can't be seen with us at the dance if you don't have a date."

I give her a look. "What do you mean?"

Behati sighs. "Sorry, Gwen. But, she's right. We all have dates. Only losers go without dates."

I'm taken aback. "I'll get a date...somehow. Just give me time."

"You better hurry up," Kendall hisses. "The Dance is on Friday."

So, now I'm dateless and my so-called friends ditched me. I can't go with Alicia, because she hates dances. And, I can't go with Pharrell, because I would just be third wheeling with him and Helen.

God, I hate high school.

Until next time,
Gx

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