Shorts: A Collection

8. Your Loss (One-shot)

I hear that your wife left you and truly I am sorry. I know you had a rocky marriage but nobody deserves to be abandoned that way.

I'll be honest, you ditching me was the best thing that could've happened between us. It didn't feel like that at the time but in retrospect, like all decisions, it's clear what should have been.

I know now that I wanted you for all the wrong reasons. I knew you were bad for me and that it wouldn't last and you'd try to manipulate me into someone else- by 'someone else' I mean your ex. I knew we weren't really compatible and you had a reputation and a drinking problen but I wanted that. I wanted the drama and the mixed feelings and the hurt.

I told myself I could change you but I didn't believe it. I was young and inexperienced and thought me teasing, arguing, pushing and challenging you meant I was immune to your charms but that was simply naivety.

You are incapable of change and partly that's why your marriage broke down. You and she were self-destructive and it was fortunate you didn't kill each other. A mutual friend told me lots and she said that me and your wife were very similar. I can't help but wonder, is that why you liked her? Was she my replacement? Did she remind you of me?

I know had you and I got together I'd resent your behaviour and you'd hate me for not being as fun and free. The joking and loaded flirtations would become serious and a bone of contention rather than amiable banter.

I fancied you and the danger that followed so when you stopped returning my texts and calls I eventually accepted it was par for the course of fancying a bad boy. Then, when we met again but I had a boyfriend, that piqued your interest and you wanted a bit of fun. I'll admit it stroked my ego having you chase me but luckily I came to my senses.

We would have been so bad together, truly. I can safely say you would have been my worst mistake, but yours was definitely giving up on me.