~Diego's past now btw 💔~
I was running low . Low on pills . My mind was going crazy . I needed more . Everyday I count on those pills .. To make me numb but live . I pasted back and fourth in my room pulling on my hair . I was losing it . But then again I been lost it ..
" Fuck!" I cursed throwing my night stand across the room in anger .
Then I peeped myself in my bathroom mirror where I was standing .. I started walking towards the mirror .
There I was . A mess . A whole different person . Dark cycles under my eyes . Hair a mess . Face looking horrible.
Then my fist made contact with the mirror .. I cursed in pain . But looked as it shattered ..
" That's better .."
I walked out of the bathroom walking downstairs running out the house getting in my moms old red mustang . Speeding off . I began blasting loud music . Going over the speeding limit going over 100 .
Why am I still here ?
Why can't I just end ?
Why do I have to keep trying when I don't wanna try anymore ?
Why keep going , when there's no need too ?
The thoughts screamed at me . I started punching the steering wheel.
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