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What have I done ?
Can't stop seeing that dead body I've killed . I sat on the edged of the bed staring at the sliver pistol that laid in the palm of my hands. I was staring hard at it .. Sleeping didn't exist anymore to me .
Every time I closed my eyes I seen it . Seen the body laying dead in front of me . I got up standing in front of my dresser mirror pressing the pistol against my temple .
Do it Diego !
It'll all be over !
No more pain !
No more fear !
No more nothing !
You'll be sleeping !
The voice screamed in my head .
I put my finger on the trigger .
I stared myself in the mirror . Tears falling , blood dripping from my open wrists that's cover up by my long sleeve's .
I closed my green eyes , holding my breath , saying goodbye . As I pulled the trigger hoping I'll fall over and be gone. There was only a click . I opened them let all the air I was holding in throwing the pistol at the mirror . Falling to my knees .
"Why ?
Why God ?
Why me ? "
I screamed out loud . Putting my head in my hands sobbing non stop . I fell onto my butt . Grabbing my knees putting them against my chest .
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