Collin's Crew III

Chapter 21

Desi's POV

I really fucked up but that didnt give Nick the right to jump into a bed with Ariel. Ariel out of all people?

I was happy to be home but I was not at the same time because my bed was big and cold. I was hurt and everything reminded me of Nick. He was on mymind constant. I hated him for what he did to me. Yet, I hated myself for letting Stefano back into my head. My chest was heavy. My mind was clouded and I was sick and tired of thinking constantly about Nick.

Zain cries out as he was tired of sitting in the high chair. "You want to crawl around baby?" I ask him as I wipe his mouth. "Laters." I say knowing he was going somewhere else. I wash the plates and go find Zain who was now in the living room looking at the TV.

I hear my phone ring and sigh. The Adams kept calling. They were checking up on me, I know but I just wanted space so for now I needed time to breathe. Its been a few days and I know Nick was going to come and kick this door down looking for Zain. How things were so complicated now with a child envolved.

I was going back to classes as well. I needed this stress to disappear. I needed a nanny but Nick already hired one. My stomach hurt everytime I thought about him.

I put Zain to bed at 7 and sat downstairs on the couch. Atleast I stopped crying? I wish my mom was here. Times like this I felt so alone because my friends were all connected to Nick. Tamara was dating Luke and thats his brother. Cleo was his sister and she was on her honeymoon. I developed a whole relationship with Chyna and Melanie and I felt so close to them yet that was Nicks friends all of them.

Everytime this happens I wanna flee New York. The only thing I'm still here for is my education and my child. The doorbell rings and I get up seeing its Jasmine. She must be pissed I almost bottled her son to death?

"Hey." I say and she walks into the house. "Hi." She says. "Is Zain asleep?" She asks and I nod. "Yeah- just fell asleep."

"You okay?" She asks and I nod as she sits down next to me. "Yeah- I guess."

"Has Nick been around?" She asks. "Nope. He hasnt seen Zain in 2 days."

"Im not sure what he is up to. I think he is just hurt." She says. "I know I messed up but I didn't do anything- physically like he was doing." I chew my bottom lip knowing this was too much. I couldnt hold back tears. I started crying again. Tears falling down. I just felt hopeless.

"What is wrong with you guys? You can't be together. This has gone too far." She says and I sigh wiping my tears. "Were done anyway." I say wiping my tears as she hugged me. "You guys have a son now. You two need to sit down and figure out some routines."

"Come bring Zain- were having dinner at mine tomorrow."

"I don't know if I want to see him."

"Zain wants to?" She says and I sigh. I'd never take his dad away because I know how important dads are. He knew himself too.

It be best anyway for us to see eachother while everyone was around.

The following day I was there. Arrived late to make sure I wasn't the first one. Also it was a hassle trying to look nice and get Zain ready.

"Hey-" Alex says opening the door. "Hey buddy." He says taking Zain from me. I felt sick to my stomach. This was bad. I could feel it.

"You good?" Alex says and I nod. "Yeah. I'm okay?"

"We eating. Come on." He says walking intothe dining room. "Hey." I say seeing Jasmine walking around with plates. "Just on time- come sit down."

I see Nick from the corner of my eye getting up. He takes Zain from Alex. "Where you going?" Mason asks Nick who takes shoves his phone into his back pocket. "I'm out here- what does it look like?"

"Nick." Jasmine says.

"No do not Nick me- I'm out. Just get out of my way please." He says with his soft tone. Wow- he really was pissed.

"How about you guys talk?" Sophia says taking Zain from Nick leaving the room followed by everyone. "Does it look like I wanna talk?" Nick says as his mom looks at him. He kicks the chair Luke sat on.

"Here you go again breaking shit." I say. "You can't even have a normal conversation."

"Don't fucking try me today." Nick says not even looking at me. "Why is she here? You thought I was going to have dinner all happy? Sit around a table. One big happy family."

"I do not need to remind you that she is the mother of your child?" Jasmine tells him.

"And thats fucking all."

"You are one hypocritcal bastard because you were fucking Ariel as soon as I messed up- so you think you are a saint here." I say.

"I really dont care." He says staring at me dead in the eye. "I don't."

I grab my bag on the chair and pick up Zain's jacket ready to leave. "My son stays here." He barks at me. I look at him and chuckle. "You think I'm leaving him with you?"

"You think I'm leaving him with you?" He fires the same question back at me.

"You didnt bother seeing him the last few days. So now you wanna bother."

"You're not taking him."

"Who are you? Trying to what command me and what I should do?" I laugh out loud. "You must be out of your mind."

"Guys- just relax. You need to let Zain go with his mother because you aint got stuff for him just yet." Mason says walking in with Zain. Nick went from a hundred to zero a he stared at Zain. Like his fist were no longer clenched. "If you want to spend time with him you can have come to the house. But hes not staying in a house where 10 people live and girls are walking in and out and drugs being used."

"Drugs?" Jasmine says. I forgot she was even here. Jasmine, you know what is up. Your sons are criminals. "Am I at that house right now?" Nick says annoyed. "Okay I'll bring him home safe?" Mason says and I look at Jasmine who nods at me slightly.

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We got into a routine. In silence, Nick would pick up Zain and return him. Sometimes he'd spend a few hours here with him as he would feed him, bathe him and put him to bed. Some days, he'd send his siblings to come get him. 

Time helped. I got to let go of Nick and the hope we would be fine. It still hurt but I distracted myself with life. Catching up on all this school work was one. I stopped checking my phone constantly for a text from Nick. I stopped looking at his side of the bed. I am now looking at being the best single mom I can be.

"Zain- you want fruits honey?" I ask him as I pick him up and put him in his high chair. I feed him mashed up bananas and strawberries. "Mama, Mama." He says as he eats. He was just making sounds. He was yet to actually speak. "Mama." I repeat after him.

"Mama." He repeats after me making me laugh.

"Daddy." Nick stood at the door opening. Zain screamed out in laughter seeing his father. "You still got keys?" I ask him.

"Yeah- you didn't open. I rang the doorbell."

"I couldnt hear you over Zain's screaming. You can just text me next time maybe." I say focusing my gaze on Zain. "What's up." Mason says standing next to Nick. "Hey." I say looking at the two standing in my kitchen. Zain was too excited and stopped eating.