Forbidden: Leadership

Chapter 8

-NINFA'S P.O.V-

 
    May have went too far. But it's the only way I can think of. If I can hold her still. Hold her for a minute, maybe she will change her mind.
    I sit her on the bed and sit with her in my arms. Just holding her. And now I wait. Now I play the waiting game.
    The gas shouldn't last long. No idea what I'm going to say. I have an idea but I may have went too far.
    I stole witch magic, some of the Elders... all to make this happen. Of course the witches are dead now but all for this.
   I'm 7 months. I need her. My stress levels have had no effect on the baby, that I've heard.
    I'm broken and very unhappy. I'm depressed. The woman I love visits me every day and every night just to check on me. I feel her kisses and it makes me sad. I feel her come and leave over and over.
    Joel said this might work. Or turn it worse. I'm too desperate to care if I mess it up even more. If there is a chance to fix this all with this then ...well... She's already knocked out in my arms.
    A small stir from her makes my heart race. Misty is ready to flop on her if she struggles. Once she knows it's me, I doubt she will struggle.
    The knockout gas was laced with the magic used to contain her in the room, so she won't fight to use her powers. Not if she wished yo keep her humanity and I think she does. I think she does or she would have went numb a while ago.
    She sighs. "Hello, Ninfa."
"I couldn't do it any other way."
"Me laying like this can hurt the baby."
"You're not heavy."
    She sighs again. "This the whole gathering with witches theories they spread about you?"
"I did what I had to. I know you feel the pain too. We both just are .. we need to talk it through."
"I did this all for you."
"I know. I know you did. I shouldn't have waited so long to talk to you. I just couldn't get it worded right. Couldn't get pass the anger. I only saw what I didn't want to see. I didn't want to believe that me being with child is the only reason you came back. I didn't want to believe that you would actually leave me. And I told you to make you stay with me... But yet I drove you out and shut you out because I was too stupid and angry."
"You should be happy though. I'm only giving what you asked for."
"This is what I want. This. You, me, our baby, Misty. Our family."
"The baby will be fine with just you. You're the good one here."
"You killed Lucifer. It set a chain reaction. This is his final torture to you. I know you have to see that. I see it now... I just need my wife with me and not away. I need you."
"If I could have just trapped him instead of killing him. But it doesn't matter anymore. He got his final wish to have me lonely and broken."
"You don't have to be if you would just stay."
"I can't."
"I'm not letting you go."
"I want to. You know I do. It's just if you forgive me. I wasn't myself fully but at the same time I was. I thought that if I would do the one thing I swore I'd never do that it would make me feel. It didn't. But then." She pauses for a moment. "Then you told me. And it made me realise how much you love me. You love me enough to carry a demon baby. And that's what brought me back. And then it all went upside down. I was terrified to talk to you because I knew that that was how you would see it. But you wouldn't listen to me. I didn't want you getting more stressed out with me being by you all the time so I thought I would just give you space. But you took so long I thought you gave up and it was over. I only crush myself more and more by seeing you when you can't see me but I have to check on you. And it's so much I had thought of going numb again, turning off my humanity but I just couldn't."
"D..Do you want to be.. w..with me?..."
    I fear her answer. I fear it. It could crush me more, or break me entirely.
"I do, yeah. I just don't know how to fix this."
"I know we can't go back to how it was immediately. But can we try? Please, Valerie. I really need you. We need you."
"So you forgive me?"
"There wasn't really anything to forgive. I was in the wrong for pushing you out. Do you forgive me for that?"
"I didn't know I had to forgive you? I thought it was my fault." She laughs lightly.
"Idiots."
    Misty jumps off the bed and walks out. I slowly release Valerie. She doesn't move away.
    I hate how I can feel her ribs... I mean I could before but not like this. Not out of starvation.
"Let's eat?"
"I haven't in a while."
"I can tell."
"I didn't have the time. I was taking out as many monsters as I could."
"And now your wife is forcing you to eat."
"You make it sound so horrible. How will I ever get away?"
     I laugh at the tone she says her words in. Always been a terrible joker. Or good, depends on the topic.
    She gets up slowly. She won't look at me though. But she hasn't left.
"What do you want to eat? I'll go get it and come back."
"I can summon."
"But the baby."
"That's the lowest power I have. It's okay."
    She hesitated but nods. She lifts me up easily and starts walking. I cling on to her.
"Where are we going?"
"I built the whole house for you. Don't confine yourself to the bedroom."
"Did you build any secrets in here?"
"A few, yes."
"You should show me."
"Eventually."
"Does this mean you're staying?"
"You asked if we could try it."
"Promise me. Promise on our child that you will stay."
   She hesitated for a moment. She sits me down on a swinging chair outside. I hadn't noticed it...
"That's not a promise I would make against our baby, Nin."
"Then promise to the highest way you can."
"On your light."
"Seal with a.. kiss?"
"Oh."
"Nevermm.."
    Her lips cut me off. It's like my heart restarted itself and skips every other beat. Her hands lightly cup my cheek and I feel her thumbs lightly brush before the kiss parts.
     I didn't know I started crying. I just wasn't expecting her to actually kiss me. I can't believe any of this is happening.
"Please don't cry."
     She's finally looking at me. Showing me her eyes. Her beautiful ruby eyes. They show as much, if not more, pain.
"I didn't know I was.."
"I'm sorry. I know those words are so little for the things I have done but I swear, all of it was to protect you. I didn't know. I didn't know killing him would do this. I di.."
    I cut her off with a kiss. I forgive her for trying to leave but I'm more sorry than she could be because she's right. She was only trying to protect me.
    She sighs as the kiss parts. "Let's get you and our little one fed?"
"I feel fat, Valerie. I swear I do."
    She laughs at me and kisses my cheek. "You're beautiful, Ninfa."
    I summon her chicken nuggets. A lot of them. And me pizza. With extra cheese.
    We eat. She even fed me a few chicken nuggets after I devoured my whole large extra cheese pizza. I really feel fat.
    It's almost weird how perfect this feels but it feels so fragile. If I were to say something wrong ...she could leave but promised she wouldn't.
"What would you like to do?"
    Her question catches me off guard. I've lived my life so closed since she went into the coma. So closed in since she left me. I've literally only ate, slept and cried.
"I..I don't know."
"We need things for the baby, don't we? Do you want to maybe do that?"
"You know I don't really like shopping."
    She laughs lightly. "Has to be done, Nin. Baby can't survive off of a blanket and pillow."
    I can see a noticeable change. She's actually looking better. The one eating gas healed part of her. I think that in a short time.. in a short time she will be perfect again.
"I guess."
"I don't have any clothes here. I have to go change and shower."
"Will you not be living here?"
     She doesn't really answer. She just.. doesn't.
    She cleans up the mess quickly. "I'll be back in a little bit."
"Alright..."
    A light kiss is pressed to my forehead and she vanishes. I'm honestly afraid she won't return. But she promised.
    I get up and head inside. I get ready. To shop. Which, I like, sort of. It's just I feel really fat right now and.. And well.. people judge. Humans are rather rude.
    Like she said, a little bit. Like 15 minutes to be exact. She knocks on the door way to get my attention.
"You don't have to knock."
"Scaring or surprising is a bad thing for the baby. I do not wish for anything wrong to happen."
    I walk over to her and she takes my hand without hesitation. Before I'm given the chance to offer my blink, she teleports. And somehow she even turns me invisible as we land, so no one can see us.
    After a moment of looking around, things seem normal again. And now we are walking through a store. I haaaattteee this. It's so much easier to shop online.
"I have a logical question."
"In this world, Val... What is logical?"
"Okay. So. Am I the father or a mother?"
"Ohh. Yeah, I see what you mean by logical. I have no idea. You did get me pregnant, so you're father. But you go by girl? ...so mother? Either way, parent."
"So no logics?"
"Nope."
"I thought I was doing good to protect from that. I never inside."
"It shocked me too. I found out before.."
"I know, I figured out the timeline thing in my time alone."
    She's holding my hand and controlling the cart with her other hand. Using small bits of power to keep the world around us slow. I guess this is why she's holding my hand because that link is no longer open.
    Things are.. okay. Things are strange. I'm in an aisle of baby things and I have no clue what I'm doing...