Sad Supernatural Imagines

#50 Cas - Part 1: Nephilem

Request from @Winchesters_love. I hope this is what you asked for!

Y/N p.o.v:

You started to cry. You and Cas had finally did it. You were standing there holding the stick that showed you 2 pink lines. You were so happy. You ran out of the bathroom and to the living room where Cas and your brothers were. No, you were not biologically related to the Winchesters, but family don't end in blood, does it? You ran in and up to Cas. You were smiling and crying happily.
"Y/N? What's wrong?" He asked. You cried even more.
"We did it! We did it, Cas!" You sobbed. You watched as Cas slowly started to understand what you meant. He hugged you to his chest.
"I am going to be a dad?" He asked. You nodded.
"Yes, Cas. You are going to be a dad." You whispered in a happy voice.
"How come we didn't know that you guys wanted to have a kid. Or kids. Oh god, I hope that it's only one kid." Dean groaned. You laughed and wiped away your tears.
"Well, because you don't like kids and because me and Cas will be moving out in about a month or 2. We were going to tell you tomorrow, but I guess now is a good time." You said. Dean rolled his eyes. You looked at Sam with a smile, but it immediately went away when you saw his face.
"Sam, what's wrong? Aren't you happy for us?" You asked. Sam looked concerned and worried.
"What? Of course I am, but what about the angels? They'll come after you. They'll kill you, Y/N, or once the baby us born, they'll kill him or her. Cas isn't strong enough to beat over a hundred angels. Then there are demons. They'll want the baby for his or her power. There is no win to this, Y/N." He said. You froze. Sam was right. You moved away from Cas. You didn't realize the danger of having a baby with an angel. You forgot the consequences you'd have to face. You were lost in your mind. You were scared, angry, and hurt. You were already in love with the baby growing inside you. You felt lightheaded. You couldn't breathe. You felt tears start to roll down your cheeks and they were definitely not happy ones.
"Y/N?" Dean asked. You didn't hear him. You were consumed by fear. You were lost in your thoughts. You didn't notice that Cas was shaking you. You didn't notice him trying to get your attention. You didn't notice him yelling your name. All you noticed was the feelings. How they were taking over your body and how they were taking over your mind. Suddenly, everything went black.

~days later~

You woke up to men talking. You listened to what they were talking about.
"She hasn't talked at all for the past few days, Dean! She hasn't even been eating! She won't come out of the room unless it's for a specific reason. You know what she does at night while you and Sam are asleep? Hunt. What am I supposed to do?! I am hurting too, but this child, our child, is in her. The demons and angels want him or her. Do you know what it would do to her if they did let our child be born, but they took him or her away? It wouldn't just hurt her. It would kill her just as much as me." A familiar voice yelled. It was Cas. You opened your eyes and looked around your dark room. Tears started to cloud your vision. You pressed your hand over your mouth to stifle a sob.
"She hunts? Doesn't she know that could hurt the baby? Or even kill her?" Dean asked. You heard Cas take a deep breath.
"She knows. She doesn't care. She thinks that if the angels are going to kill her anyway or the baby then why would it matter if she died or if something happened to the baby? Same with the demons." Cas said. You heard the anger in his voice. You were hurting him. You were hurting yourself. You were hurting your baby. You sobbed into your pillow. You heard a sigh and then a 'forget about it.' Then, the door opened and closed.
"Y/N?" Cas called softly. You didn't answer. You couldn't. You cried harder.
"Oh, Y/N." He said. You heard him quickly walk over to you. You felt a hand gently rub your back. You looked up at Cas with hot tears cascading down your cheeks.
"I-I'm so sor-ry, Cas. I'm s-sorry." You sobbed. Cas wiped your tears away, but only more followed.
"Shh. It's okay, Y/N. It's okay. I'm here." He whispered. You shook your head, tears still traveling down your face.
"I-It's not okay, Cas. I'm hurting y-you, myself, and our b-baby! How is th-that okay?" You asked in a sobbing stutter. Cas pulled you close to him and didn't say anything. He just rubbed your back soothingly. As much as you wanted it to help, it didn't. You couldn't contain the guilt you had. You couldn't help, but feel responsible for this.
"Stop. It isn't your fault, Y/N. Nothing is. I swear to my father that I will not let anyone hurt you. I will protect you and our child even if it costs me my life. You mean so much to me, Y/N, and so does our baby. You and our child will always, always come first." Cas told you. You continued to cry.
"P-Please don't leave m-me. Don't die trying to protect us. I can't do this on my own." You whispered. Cas squeezed you tightly and kissed you on the forehead.
"I will never leave you, Y/N. I love you." He said. You buried your face into his.
"I love you, too." You responded.

To be continued.

A/N:

I'm sorry, but this has to be made into 2 parts! I hope you don't mind!