#79 Sam - I'm Not Her

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Okay, I think for the rest of these until I get more requests, these will just be formatted like my preferences. Sorry if you don't like it, but these are the only ideas I have for right now.

Y/N p.o.v:

/She's got blue eyes, long legs. Pretty rosy cheeks and I've got fair skin, brown hair. Not what you wanted/

"I'm sorry that I'm not what you wanted, Sam." You whispered to yourself as you watched Sam eye the pretty girl with blue eyes, long legs, and pretty rosy cheeks. You had fair skin and brown hair. Not what Sam wanted. He looked at you with a raised eyebrow.
"You say something?" He asked. You shook your head with a fake smile.
"Nope." You said. You and Sam had been together for a few years and for a few weeks, everytime you went to the diner close to the bunker, Sam would eye the pretty girl at the counter. When she looked over by you and Sam, he'd wink at her and then she'd smile and then turn back around.

/Baby, I'm sorry. I'm not exactly what you had in mind, but please don't leave. If you stay, I promise I will change your mind/

"I love you, Sam." You said to your boyfriend. Sam looked up with what seemed like a forced smile.
"Love you, too." He said and then went back to researching. You sighed and then went back to reading your book. You'd change his mind on you. You'd show him that you're worth it.

/And is it too much to ask to just feel wanted? To feel the love I feel for you returned? And is it so wrong to think that you could love me? I guess the problem is that I'm not her/

You just wanted to feel wanted. You just wanted to feel the love from Sam in return. Was it so wrong to think that Sam could actually love you? Maybe the problem is that you're not her. You cried into your pillow. Sam was away on a hunt with Dean and you were here crying because you knew Sam was falling out of love with you. And soon enough he'd end it and go to that pretty blue eyed girl in the diner. The thought of that killed you.

/She's got a big smile, soft hands. Perfect little dimples. I've got torn jeans, chipped nails. Everything is simple/

"Is the food good?" You asked. You were trying to take Sam's attention away from the blue eyed girl with a big smile that showed her perfect little dimples. Her hands looking so soft and smooth while you were sitting here with ripped jeans and chipped nails. Everything so simple.
"Yeah, yeah. It's good." Sam said, not taking his eyes off of the girl. You sighed and picked at your untouched plate of food.

/Baby, I'm sorry. I'm not exactly what you had in mind, but please don't leave. If you stay, I promise I will change your mind/

You sat in the bunker library staring at the bookshelves. Sam and Dean wouldn't be back until Friday. It was Monday. Why was Sam doing this to you? Why was he torturing you like this? All you could think of was Sam with her and not you. That girl was so perfect; so beautiful and yet here you were: average looking and flawed. What would it take to get your boyfriend back? To fall in love with you again? To want to be with you again?

/And is it too much to ask to just feel wanted? To feel the love I feel for you returned? And is it so wrong to think that you could love me? I guess the problem is that I'm not her. I'm not her. I'm not her/

"Y/N, I've been meaning to-" You interrupted Sam.
"I know, Sam." You whispered. Sam's eyes were sad, but you saw the truth in them. He didn't really care how you felt.
"I'm sorry." He said. You shook your head.
"Don't be. You were too far out of my league anyway. I should be sorry for letting you break my heart and continue to shatter it." You said coldly. Sam looked down.
"I don't know what happened to us, Y/N." Sam said lowly. You scoffed.
"You happened to us. She happened to us! She ruined us! I tried to hard to get you back! To love me again! A woman shouldn't have to do that, Sam!" You cried. Tears spilled out of your eyes and down your cheeks. You stood up with your bag that was all ready to go and ran out of the bunker. You left that day. And you never came back.

/She's got blue eyes, long legs. Pretty rosy cheeks and I've got fair skin, brown hair. Not what you wanted anymore/

A/N:

A short one, but eh.. Idk how I feel about this one. The other 2 were better.

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