Chardre: The Inseparable

No Ones Fault

Leondre's P.O.V

The doctor finally tells us how Ben is, he said that Ben is on life support, but probably won't be able to survive on his own again, and that the best thing to do would be to turn off life support. I hate the thought that I would be turning off the thing that is keeping him alive, but I understood why.

I immediately interrupted the adults. I asked them if it would be possible to leave him on it for tomorrow, so I could text everyone and let them know. Mum agreed it would be a wise idea. She said I can tell Charlie and Clay what happened. I asked if I should tell Sam, and she said that its up to me. I decided to tell him as well, as Ben really loved him. But I didn't want to make it sound like it was his fault, even tho it kind of was, it was more my fault for not staying with Ben.

I started a group chat and texted that I needed to talk to all of them urgently. It was like 3am, so I wasn't expecting any answers from people. I don't get any, but made sure to put my phone off silent, and on full volume, so I would her if anyone messaged me. I went and sat next to Ben's lifeless body and started writing. I just let my pencil do the work, and eventually I had a rap, devoted to Ben. I folded the paper and tucked it into my phone case, where no one else could read it. I put my headphones on and started blasting music, and rested my head on the edge of the bed.

I don't remember falling asleep, but I woke up to the smell of fruit bread and hot chocolate. Mum was eating hers on the other side of the room. When she saw me moving she said it was about time I woke up, as my phone had been dinging for ages. I jumped up and looked at my phone, I had messages from everyone in the group. I jumped on and checked to see if anyone was there, and they all responded immediately, asking what had happened. I just told them they needed to get to the hospital ASAP and they all said they'd do their best.

About an hour later, all three showed up together and a nurse led them to the hospital room. The curtain was drawn around Ben's bed, so they couldn't see him yet. We sat them down and I told them the story. Whilst I was telling the story, Charlie and Clay kept on death staring Sam, and I could sense his discomfort, I think mum could to, because she went and sat between him and the others. I told them all about how it wasn't Sam's fault, and that it was my fault for not staying with Ben. Immediately everyone jumped in saying that we all could've helped out a bit more. But I still felt like I was to blame.

As I was saying this, constable Hady walked in. As soon as he heard me saying that it was my fault, he started to lecture us about how it was no one's fault but Ben's choice. He told us that none of us should feel responsible, then directly addressed Sam and said that he's seen similar scenarios, where the ex has then also committed suicide, so he told Sam to not do that, no matter what people said to him. We all backed up Sam, saying that we knew it wasn't his fault, and Sam seemed a bit happier.

The hospital provided a lunch for us before we said our final farewells to Sam. O stable Hady said that he had notified Ben's biological parents. We all started to worry that they would show up, but he said that they hadn't shown any interest in it, apart from to ask if they got any of his stuff, to which the answer was no.

Hey Guys!

Sorry for not updating for a while, I don't really know why I haven't been updating, I'm just sorry that I didn't update sooner. 

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