Love Stoned

My Tears Are Like a Waterfall

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"Holy shit that was wow!" Connar stutters out. I blush even more then Miles did. I look over at Ia and he is just smiling at me. I feel so good and powerful, I think the right word would be free.

"Good job Ash. That's what all of us should be doing trying to reach out are powers just not limiting are self's to just using them." My mother says as she breaks into the circle surrounding me. My comfort dissipates as I see her. She gives me a hand up but I deny it and get up. She gives me a disappointed look, I just don't know how to feel about her yet so I won't say anything to her.

"Okay... well all of you can do whatever you want we won't have are meeting until tomorrow since all of you worked hard today." She says as she walks back out of the circle and back to where ever she hides from things.

"What's up with you?" Ian ask me sharply.

"You don't understand Ian." I say, I finally notice everyone disappear from the circle and all go everywhere over the rec room.

"Try me!"

"Fine come with me." I say as I take his hand and take him out of the rec room and into the room that will now be mine. I fall onto the bed, which is covered in a green comforter. Ian sits next to me.

"Tell me what's going on with you." He sounds genuinely worried about me. Why would he be though?

"It's just I don't know how to feel about her yet. I mean how would you feel if someone could have prevented your sister's death but didn't and just watched? Then let you even believe they were dead and made you believe it was true but all it was was a big lie! Ian, it just hurts. You have no idea how bad it hurts me." I scream, not at him though just in general. He doesn't say anything. I finally stop pacing and sit back down on the bed.

"I know I don't understand, but that doesn't mean that I can't care." He says quietly. Why is he being so weird right now?

"Ian now I get to ask my question. What's wrong with you? You have been acting weird ever since I showed everyone what I can do." He looks up at me, his sapphire eyes brightening by looking at me. I see his eyes travel down to me neck. I pull out my stone only to see that the rounded parts of the top of the heart are the only black things left.

"That's why. Ash my tattoo hasen't changed since this morning it's only half blue, but your stone is almost all blue. Why?" I put my Char necklace back under my shirt.

"I don't know it's not like I'm telling it to it just does..." I whisper. Truth is maybe the stone is right and maybe I do feel something for him... Shit! I totally forgot he can hear my thoughts! Shit! Shit! Shit!

"Ash..." He looks at me stunned his eyes about to like pop out of his head at any moment. What do I do? I try bolting out the door but Ian grabs my arm and pulls me back towards him. He has about two inches on me in height. He is still holding my arm and pretty tightly too.

"You know your thoughts aren't private anymore." He whispers in my ear. It sends shivers through out my whole body. I hope he didn't notice.

"Please let go..." I say quietly.

"You have to tell me something first." I look up at him.

"Do you really have feelings for me? Your own not from some stone?" His eyes feel like they can see straight through me like I am a book he is reading. I nod. What else am I supposed to say? I mean I'm supposed to be in love with Kyle and here I am with Ian about to melt from just his eyes looking into mine. I quickly look away and try to get my arm free. It finally gets loose and he lets go. I start to walk out but once again he pulls me back. His arms wraps around my waist and I quickly turn into him. He leans in and his lips meet mine. I find my hands going through his black smooth hair. His one stands stays on my waist while the other is on the back on my neck. I feel his tongue on my bottom lip asking for entrance. I easily give in and give it to him. He taste like mint and God does it taste good. My grip tightens in his hair and he brings me closer, but I don't know how he could. There isn't any room between us now. This just feels right being with Ian like this.

"Ash..." I quickly let go of Ian and look over to the voice who called my name. It's Kyle. He has tears streaming down his face. I try to go after him but her runs out before I even reach the door. He is already out of my hallway. I slid down against the door frame, I feel a tear slide down my cheek. Ian comes over to hold me. I quickly go into his arms and cry into his shoulder.

" I.... I.... didn't want him... finding out like.... like this." I say between sobs. Ian strokes my hair to try and calm me, but I just broke my best friends heart. I don't see how I could be calm in this situation.

"I know, I know you didn't. You would have had to tell him sometime though." Ian says, his voice automatically starts to calm me. This boy had major effects on me! I just let him hold me because I can't be alone, I would just feel so cold on the inside. I feel terrible, I didn't want Kyle to see that, I knew I was going to have to explain what was going on between Ian and I "but this wasen't the way. I grip onto his bright blue shirt wanting him to hold me tighter. I feel safe here in his arms. He doesn't say anything else he just let's me cry into his shoulder. I finally stop crying but Ian still holds me and I don't protest.

"I'm sorry..." Ian whispers quietly.

"Why are you sorry... it's all my fault." I hiccup.

"If I wouldn't have kissed you..." I stop him.

"No. You can't blame yourself. Ian look at me don't you dare blame yourself you just did what you thought was right there is nothing wrong with that. Plus you can't blame yourself for what is obviously my fault."

"But"

"No."

"Ash"

"Ian!"

"Fine, but you can't go around blaming just yourself, I am taking blame too. We are in this together." I let a little smile out. Ian kisses a stray tear that started to fall. I can't hide the blush that makes it's way to my cheeks. This is though I don't blame myself for kissing Ian I knew what I was doing and I wouldn't have it any other way. I just blame myself for not telling Kyle and for him to find out by seeing that. I feel a burning sensation on my chest. I pull out my necklace. The black has now completely dissipated and all that is left is a striking light sapphire blue stone. I mess around with my stone between my fingers, it's till warm from the color change, but it feels nice not like burning hot it feels warm and inviting instead. I let if drop , this time I don't  put it back into my shirt, I leave it out. I am not going to hide it anymore and be ashamed of it.

"It looks, beautiful but it will never be more beautiful then you." Ian says. I smile, I see blue peaking out from under his shirt sleeve. I lift it up and his once all black tribal heart is now our sapphire blue. I smile up at him.

"Well I guess I can't hide it anymore."

"I guess you can't" I say to him as he holds me.