Love Stoned

Reaching Out

I lie awake another night, I haven't gotten much sleep since Kyle got back two nights ago, two days without sleep can really mess you up. During training I did terrible and couldn't really do anything right. My abilities are really deteriorating, I can even feel them weakening. I just can't help it, I have so much running through my mind. All of this is just to much and I'm only a sixteen year old girl. I even forgot all of our birthdays were last week and Pereside is in the works. For now the kids choose if they even want to fight and risk it all or stay with there family. After the Lage or the government sees who wants to fight , the Lage will broadcast the candidates live, and then the choosing ceremony of who won. I wonder who from Seeriniss will be choosing to fight this year. This would have been the year I would finally be with someone I truly love and that loves me back, Kyle. All of that changed for us though and for the worst. I  wonder if I could have even made it through Pereside. I guess I will never know... why and I even thinking about that? I shouldn't be focused on that I should be thinking about the guys and  taking down my father.

Kyle has been with me for so long and we weren't forced into it, but we have so many past issues that never really got resolved and they were very big like Shelby, him understanding or letting me explain the imprint and also him not being there for me when I needed him most.

Ian is no better even though I know I feel something for him sometimes a feeling just isn't enough. He has hidden so many things from me, and is always bringing up the bad like me not being able to choose. Ugh why does this have to be so damn complicated? Love is love it never should be complicated but I guess it has to be in this situation. Plus sometimes all the hurt it brings you it's just not worth the pain.

I feel so tired but I 'm never going to be able to fall asleep with all of this on my mind so I just keep tossing and turning until I hear the sound of my door handle turn so I quickly pretend to be asleep as best as I can. The mystery person comes over to my bed side then sits on the edge slowly trying not to "wake me". I can tell it's a guy by the weight and the feeling in my gut. I get a picture flash in my mind of a light in the shape of a persons silhouette and then a bubble of white light that looks like it's protecting him. By the silhouette I can tell it's one of the older guys by a couple months. I feel him brush my hair to the side of my face caringly. I stir uncomfortably under the touch, I don't like not knowing who's touching me it just feels to weird.

"If only you know how much I really care about you, I wish you knew how hard I try to make you happy, and I wish you knew I never wanted to hurt you even though it sure seemed like it." Ian whispers to me. Wow , that was interesting I wish I knew a couple more things like why he does blow up then. Also why he is being such a dick but I just lay here. He smooths down my hair and I feel a part of myself melting under his touch but the other part jumping on high alert to get the hell away. What is going on with me?

"I'm so sorry..." Ugh maybe this pretending to be asleep thing wasen't a good idea I'm getting nothing from this. I hear my door open again and the light fly on. I quickly open my eyes to see what the hell is going on.

"What are you doing here?" Kyle growls. Ian stands up quickly and gives Kyle a deadly stare like they are going to kill each other just by standing and glaring at each other.

"I could ask you the same thing." He retorts quickly. I throw my covers to the side and stand in between them.

"Well you know what I should be asking the questions I haven't gotten sleep these past couple days and you know that but you both decided to bother me . What are you doing in my room?" I say groggily but still full of anger and confusion. I look at the both of them and they just stare there eyes huge, I sigh and hold my head.

"What is it now?" They both sputter out nonsense. I look at them for answers they just stare at me in awe.

"Seriously what is it?" I say a little louder. They blink and shake there heads coming back to reality.

"Your..."

"Glowing!" Ian finishes for Kyle. I laugh at them , but I suddenly stop when I realize there dead serious. I run over to my mirror and see this iridescent blue glow illuminating around my body. It ripples around me like it has it's own pulse, I put my hand in the wave and I feel it shock me with energy. Now I look at myself in awe and admiration. I turn back to the boys and they look totally mesmerized

"Guys!" I yell and they snap out of it.

"It's amazing it's like your energy is pulsing off your body." Ian says circling me. I feel like some type of exhibit. I get one of the pictures in my head again it's of my room but it's dark and there are two light silhouettes. One is brighter then the other though. I blink again and see the colors from the picture around the boys, Kyle's being the brighter one but both are blue.

"Do you see that?" I say as I walk over to both of them.

"See what?" Kyle ask a little scared when I look him over and feel the energy around him, just like mine but his is a lot less powerful then mine.

"You don't see the light around you two it's like my energy is rubbing off onto you." They look at each other then look at me like I'm crazy

"Maybe it's your abilities growing."

"No I can tell this is different I can also see pictures in my head of you as light silhouettes with that energy around you I think my ability of invincibility is protecting you too. Ian try hurting Kyle." In response Ian gives me a deadly smile then turns to Kyle. I see the energy around Kyle wavering but when I focus on him it glows strong. I don't hear Kyle in agonizing pain so it worked!

"That's crazy! I didn't feel anything!" Kyle says both full of excitement and full of relief. A smile beams across my face, wow as soon as I thought nothing could get better my life turns around to give me this ability to protect more then just myself. I fall onto my bed exhausted.

"I think we should go, and you get some rest okay." Kyle implies, Ian just nods then gives me a quick smile on the way out. I fall onto my back on the bed. Well this was an awesome night diverted possible destruction and I figured out about my ability growing. I yawn, and then finally let the tiredness take over and slip into blackness.