Love Stoned

Staying Strong

I wake up with my energy drained out of my body, I try to slowly get up out of my bed and feeling that if I start to move to quickly I would just fall straight down. I cant even try to get the events of last night out of my head it's like there plastered there in my memory. I had felt so strong and powerful but it all went away so quickly. I walk down the thousands of halls winding and turning until I make it to the cafeteria/ meeting room, I don't even care what I look like, not like it matters anyway since no one cares besides Ian and Kyle and they would still not even care to much. I keep walking through not even giving one cent of attention to anything but trying to walk until I ram into something and fall right on my ass.

"I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention, I am so out of it this morning." I look up to see who I accidentally rammed into and look into my fathers eyes.

"You never were the one to pay attention anyway to busy. You know Ash even though you don't very much pay attention I could always use your help in getting ride of the normals. What do you say? Finally come to where you belong." He gives out his hand to help me up but I just back away quickly and keep saying no repeating it over and over. I start shaking my head hoping this will all just go away I don't want to be responsible for someone else life or death I'm only 16! I keep shaking my head and screaming no until I finally make it out of my dream. I quickly grab a hold of my chest my heart about to beat out. Then in comes Kyle busting down my door of course only in his boxers...

"Are you okay! I felt that you were in danger and I ran as fast as possible what's going on?"

"Yes I am fine, but really Kyle if I was being brutally murdered that is exactly what you would do run in here with nothing but you in your boxers..?" He laughs then sits next to me on my bed.

"Don't worry I would have done... you know something." This time I laugh. A smile lights across his face, I hug and say,

"You know I really missed you, I know you have been here for a while and I haven't told you this till now but you need to know."

"I know, but never late then never right?"

"Kyle I never thought you were coming back... everyday I felt like pieces of myself were being just ripped away from me and I was never going to get them back." I whisper this feeling like the world just paused to hear me say those words. I look down at my hands trying to avoid looking into those eyes of his because I don't know if I want to see or hear what he feels. For a long time I was so confused between Ian and him but the truth is Ian was like a band aid for me, he never fully closed up my wound of Kyle leaving. Only Kyle would be able to fix me.

"Do you really mean that?" I feel like I have to look up at him now so I slowly do, I give him a serious look and then whisper,

"Every word." I feel a blush rubbing trying to break against my cheeks... stupid hormones. We sit there in dead silence, it feels like it is just strangling me, every second that passes by waiting for his response it grows tighter. I notice his eyes just sparkle like the stars in the black night sky, which makes me smile. He looks at me questioningly and ask quietly,

"Can I kiss you?" I laugh, but he just gives me a serious look.

"Do you really have to ask you never did before. And since you're asking yes." He leans in with the lead, getting closer, and closer, the heat becomes absolutely unbearable to detain anymore. I pull him in the rest of the way, and I feel electricity and power shake down my spine, it makes me feel so much lighter.

"Wow!" Kyle exclaims breathless, I  let out a slight giggle and red flushes to my face quickly.

"That's one way to put it," I laugh.