Sincerely, Sara

Chapter 5

The water could not seem to get hot enough, my body could not seem to get comfortable enough. Although taking a shower had seemed like a great idea, it turned out to be a pretty bad one.

I turned off the water and grabbed a towel covered in Disney princesses. Wow. Back when I obsessed over the princesses I thought scraping my knee was pain. Hell, I'm pretty sure this isn't as bad as pain could get. This was probably a 6 out of 10.

I opened the door to my room, the dark blue walls were littered with decorations from many places. Africa, South America, Europe, and many many states. I hadn't been to many of those places, although it would be cool to go.

Tomorrow, thankfully, was Friday. One of my favorite books was being turned into a movie. I should see if... no I probably couldn't go to a movie. My head would probably hurt too much. Could I even read? It had been nearly a week since I had last read an actual book, a.k.a way too long.

Why couldn't my life be the way it was before, why did this happen to me, why wasn't there a cure? I sighed and plopped down on my unmade bed. I had never had to make my bed, it was pointless to do anyway. Why waste my time on pointless things?

Then I remembered, I had chemo again on Saturday. And even worse, I would find out the extent of the damage the tumor has (and will eventually) cause.

I pulled my long blonde hair into a pony tail and sighed. It was only 8 but the day had been wicked long, too long. I set my alarm and crawled into bed. I closed my eyes and tried to ignore the pounding in my head.

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6:00 came way too early. I groaned and rolled out of bed. The air was very, very cold and I wanted to just climb back under my covers and stay there forever. I shut off blaring alarm on my clock and rubbed my temples.

Great way to start off the day, with yet another headache. As I brushed my teeth I looked up into the mirror, I looked like a mess. I had dark bags under my blue eyes and my cheeks were splotchy and puffy. Thank god for makeup.

I walked back into my room and grabbed a pair of jeans and a cute shirt. I nearly fell putting my pants on, classic ditzy me.

I walked downstairs and packed my lunch, my mom followed shortly after. She gave me this look like "what the heck?"

"What?" I asked her.

"Sweetheart... your shirt is on backwards" she held back her laughter as I looked down and realized she was right. Yet again, my mushy morning brain had failed me.

As soon as my shirt was fixed, I had eaten, applied makeup, taken care of my evil bunny, and put shoes on I had no extra time. I grabbed my backpack and ran, or speed walked, out to my moms jeep.

The ride to school was only around 5 minutes. I smiled and said bye to my mom then got out of the car and headed into the school building.

My first class was science, thankfully we were watching a movie today, it was stimulating but not loud. That was good. Izzy, one of my best friends, greeted me while we waited to go into class. Izzy looked similar to me actually with blonde hair and blue eyes. Although her hair was lighter colored, more tamed, and shorter than mine and she did not have bangs. Not to mention she was a good 2 inches taller than I was.

"Hey loser."

"Sup"

"Woah! No name calling? Okay something's wrong."

"No I just have a headache, no biggie"

She rolled her eyes and walked into the science room "No excuse, you're boring today."

"Hmm, thanks Iz."

"Anytime" with that we both sat down at our seats and the teacher started the movie.