Fire Hazard🔥🔥

Chapter 23

                   *Recap*
   He smiled and walked out of the room closing the door behind him as the nurse changed the bandages on my Collar bone, chest and arm she looked down to me and the few words she said made me actually feel a spark of happiness since I've been here.

" You've really got a keeper there."

" I do don't I."

     At that, she walked out of the room closing the door and that's the last thing I saw before my vision was consumed with darkness as I fell asleep.
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    I woke to the light shining in my eyes. I didn't want to be awake I wanted to still sleep. There were things I was gonna have to deal with. I just wanted to sleep and not for a few more hours but forever.
      I heard the door creep open and I quickly shut my eyes. I couldn't tell who it was but I didn't want to open my eyes. I felt the presence of a few people I opened my eyes to see who it was I saw a bald head which was the trademark of Mr.B. I rolled over and saw none other than Mr.B, Sam, and Andy.
     It was silent for a few minutes until Mr.B decided to speak.

"They cant get a hold of your mom."

"It doesn't surprise me."

"What do you mean?"

"You already know Mr.B, my dad was the one that cared my mom was just kind of there."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be I'm used to it."

    Mr.B turned around and looked at Andy and Sam then walked out. Andy and Sam knew about my mom and how she acted, It wasn't a surprise. Mr.B knew but not as well. I sat there looking straight ahead of me. Laying my right arm on my left forearm.

"Does your mom know?" Andy asked

"Know what?"

"What you do to yourself."

"No, but I doubt she'll care."

    As Andy was about to say something else the doctor came into the room talking about the extent of injuries and how a large portion of people are being released today.  I didn't catch it all because I was staring into space. I don't know for how long. But long enough for the doctor to be talking to me.

"Do you know where she could be Alexis?"

"Huh?" I looked up at him dumbfoundedly.

"Do you know where your mother could be?"

"Do I look like someone who's close with her parent?" I mentioned toward my arm.

Ignoring my last comment he continued. "Is there someone we can contact to let them know that we are releasing you?"

I sat there thinking for a while no one comes to mind.

Andy spoke, " What about your sister?"

"I haven't talked to her in a few months Andy, I doubt she'll pick up."

"It's worth the try."

"Fine," I pick up my phone and search my contacts for her.

  I put the phone to my ear. It rings once, rings twice, and three times but no answer. I hang up and try again. This time she answers.

"Hey, Ashley."

" yeah."

"I need you to come get me."

"Where are you?"

"The um. The hospital."

"Can't mom come get you?"

"She won't pick up."

"I guess I can."

"Thank you."

She hung up quickly. I looked over at Andy.

"I guess she's coming. "

"Ok, that's good."

    The doctor and Sam turned around to leave. Andy did as well but stayed after for a few minutes.

"You don't seem to happy that your sister is picking you up."

"It's whatever."

"It's not whatever."

"I haven't talked to her in forever. And of course the time I actually talk to her I'm asking her for something again."

"This isn't your fault."

"Isn't that what you're supposed to say."

"No, but it's what I wanna say."

     I just rolled my eyes, knowing I wasn't gonna win this, Whatever it was. I waited an hour and ended up getting dressed and went to visit some of the other band kids that were hurt, then Ashley showed up. She walked in looking pissed. A look that I haven't seen in a while. She walked up with her husband's daughters daughter on her hip and a look of pure hatred.

"Thanks," I said as we walked out.

   She was quiet she didn't speak as we walked out. She got in and drove to moms house where my car sat. I got out of her car and got into mine and started the engine and drove away.
*The next day*
   I don't remember exactly what happened last night after I got to my friends. I remember sitting with a group of people drinking and then we all did some other stuff involving blades. I woke up on a couch with a whole bunch of people surrounding me. Most of them I knew but some of them I didn't.
     I stood up and walked around gathering my things. I grabbed my cutting articles and washed them off and put them back in my phone case. I walked out of the house with the sun blazing down on me. Would anyone condone what I did last night, probably not but neither do I. It happened and I see it as whatever. My motto for now on I thought "its whatever." And that's what I'm gonna live by.
    I got in my car and drove home when I got there I wasn't surprised to see that my mom was still sleeping. She usually is. I walked in throwing my keys on the counter and grabbing an orange juice and running up to my room. I plopped on my bed looking through the pictures from last night. Some were ok and others weren't. I deleted ninety-five percent of them and ran to get a shower.
       When I went in I took off my shirt and looked in the mirror. So many scars it was disgusting. The new ones concerned me but, whatever right. I got in the shower and blasted my music. It was a way to drowned everything else out.
     I don't know exactly how long I was in the shower I remember hearing the door slam shut knowing it was my mom's room. I looked at the clock. Realizing I've been in here for about two hours I finally decide to get out and do something. I got into my room and throw on some sweats and run downstairs to eat. I look in the fridge and the cabinets realizing there wasn't much there to eat.

     "I could lose some weight." I thought to myself. I grabbed my headphones and ran outside. I ran for about two hours and I accomplished about fifteen miles. Wasn't as good or as far but it was something. I jogged back up the hill to my house and ran inside and grabbed a bottle of water.
    I decided to grab an apple and run upstairs and lay down for a little seeing as how it's six I didn't think my mom would care. I laid up there and took about two bites of the apple before throwing it away. I laid on my phone for about two hours and ended up falling asleep.
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So this is kind of a gross chapter but it shows some insecurities. But an update none the less sorry the ending is so gross.