Over the past few months, I have sat in front of my computer screen like a coward, talking about people and their lives like it was any of my right. I have lashed out in several wrong ways and I apologize to not only those people but to my readers.
Most of my posts unaptly named 'Getting back at the Ex' have been false. Not only have I used our experiences, which have taught me to forgive and let go, wrongly against him... I made a wonderful man out to be a horrid person.
Xander, if you are out there and reading this... I am sorry. I deserve no forgiveness.
Emmitt, I deserve no second chance.
All that I ask is to listen. I wrote this blog series to get closure and I got further away but no fault from either of you. Every decision I have made has left me more heartbroken and confused then when I started out.
I will never regret getting to reconnect with the first love I ever had though. Xander, I cherish getting to know the person that you are now. Whatever got you here today, I thank them. People are lucky to know the thoughtful, loving person you are. Whatever mistakes you made in the past... None of them matter, because they helped guide you into this wonderful being.
Emmitt... you were never just a use to me. Everything was confusing and fun. You were my adventure. I wish we had met under different circumstances. Know that you did nothing wrong and I hope Xander knows that as well.
Readers, this experience has shown me a part of myself that I never wanted to see and didn't know was there.
Your past is not black and white, the people who wronged you are not black and white. Never underestimate a person's journey or feelings.
Until next time...
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