The Other Side of Me

Chapter 2

-Eleanor-

Do you know that kind of feeling when you already finished a difficult exam that you've been studying for a week? That good feeling when you aced it

I'm having that feeling right now, and it feels so good.

"I missed you so much,seriously" Zayn said to me,while giving me kisses.

"Awww,I missed you so much too!" I cooed and he pinched me on my cheeks, it hurts. Really...

Louis kept on yelling at us for giving him a headache and for making him looks at us while we're snogging, it's fun playing a prank on him...

"Stop making out you guys, c'mon it's not funny anymore and I'm gonna barf any minute if you don't stop doing that!" he shouted again and we stopped.

"Jealous!" I teased and he gave me a middle finger.

It's so fun to be be in a company especially when that company includes Zayn and Louis. They're the best company you could ever have and I'm not even kidding.

We went quiet until we reached the hotel that we'll be staying at, and my mind was filled with so many thoughts about Zayn,our situation...everything. It's all so good but some things hurt really bad. 

What if I didn't agreed to Louis in the first place? then I won't meet Zayn? and I won't fall inlove with him? and we won't be together... and I'll be alone and unloved.

What if I met Zayn first?

What if they didn't set Zayn and Perrie up for a fake relationship? It'll feel lighter than it is now.

but, what if Zayn's already falling with Perrie? What if he's here with me because he doesn't want to hurt anyone? What if he never did love me? What will happen to me now?

"Babe? Are you okay?" Zayn asks as I was looking through the windows, looking from afar. I'm physically here, but my mind is wandering someplace else.

"O-of course I am,just thinking about school stuffs" I lied and he just nodded, Louis was sleeping infront of us, snoring, too. It's cute at first because he's making a cute sound but then it annoyed all of us.

"I have to talk to you later...in private" his voice sounded so serious and again,so many thoughts flooded my mind. Is he breaking up with me for Perrie? It can happen,it's possible. Perrie's a nice and kind and she's attractive.Plus, she won the X-Factor and I didn't.

"you're making me nervous,what's so important babe?you look so serious. Is there something wrong with you?" I asked, he just laughed at me. God, I missed that laugh of his. the most perfect laugh I have ever seen in my entire life.

"Later, I will tell you" he answered back and I never respond to it, but instead I rested my head over his shoulder and closed my eyes as he was singing my favorite song to me. I mean, one of their song. Moments.

You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to be my love my heart is breathing for this moment in time. I'll find the words to say...

I can't help but shed a tear on the last part... I hope he won't notice it...

before you leave me today.

"you will never leave me right?" I asked him,looking up at him. He smiled before kissing me on my forehead. "I will never leave you...ever" he mumbled then kissed me again.

He notice that my cheeks were slightly wet, he kept on asking me what's wrong, it's me overthinking about a situation in my mind that is 75% impossible to happen. It sounds silly, but I love him so much that I can't even think of my life without him.

"you'll tell me soon right?" he asked and I nodded again,not saying a word but letting moments in my head play...

"We're here guys,Louis,help Eleanor with her luggage...Zayn? Don't get close to El,you know what to do." Paul reminded us, I hate it when I need to get away from Zayn and be with Louis. I mean I like Louis but as a friend. I wish I was with Zayn right now, walking without anyone judging us.

"Sorry if you have to do this for me,  I know this is so hard for you but..." Louis kept saying this over and over again and I am so sick and tired of hearing this. I know it's hard for him too,to keep up with all this twisted relationship with Me and Zayn.

"I know Lou,I know... Someday everything will be fine,and you will not come in between this" I said to him and he held my hand like we're a real couple. Zayn was glancing at us,walking so far from us. 

Good thing the hotel and the parking lot was not too far from each other.

"Harry and Zayn will be sharing the same room" he whispered.

"Why not you?I thought you and Zayn will be roommates?" I asked slightly angry.

"Uhm,well, we haven't told management that you'll go here and they will be very pissed if they knew you were here"  Louis answered back,great!

When we reached Louis and Niall's room, I rested for like 30 mins. before I went to Zayn and Harry's room,they're all there including the other band that they're touring with.

"Hey guys!" I greeted all of them and sat beside Zayn and wrapped my arms around him. Harry looked at me worriedly before Zayn asked me if we could talk privately. I nodded and we walked to his own room.

"Babe..." he cooed and I just looked at him.

His eyes were like telling me something,and it's not good.

He lifted the right sleeve of his shirt and revealed a tattoo of a girl in his biceps. 

"Who the fuck is this babe?" I joked,but deep inside I'm nervous. God I hope that it's just a tattoo of a Barbie doll.

"Perrie..." he mumbled, "Why did you get a tattoo of Perrie in your fucking biceps?" I asked him, my voice was squeaking and my eyes are starting to water...

"Sorry...but the management told me that we're not believable enough to be a couple." he reasoned out.

Because you're fucking not,Zayn. Your relationship with her is just for publicity, just for her benefit.

"and you got a tattoo of her in your fucking body? What were you thinking? There's so many ways to prove that you 'love' her Zayn!" I snapped and he looked at the ground mumbling something and I can't understand it.

"D-do you love her Zayn?" I asked, hoping that no would be his answer.

"What? babe no. I only love you. You know that I need to do this right? I love you, I thought you knew that already?" he hugged me then, and my eyes kept on producing so much tears. His body is so warm that I don't to let him go.

"Perrie will go here tomorrow babe." he said to me. So I won't have much time to spend with him? Perrie's here, of course they will be going out and all that.

"Really? So you're saying that we only have a day to spend. Well night now, because it's already 4 in the afternoon." I said then he just nodded.

This is so complicaated and I don't want this to happen.

"Sleep beside me tonight?" He said and I just hugged him before we went to the living room with the rest of the guys.

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I'm sorry if this chapter was lame. :)))) :/ xx Go Zeleanor!