The Other Side of Me

Chapter 12

AUSTRALIAN TOUR 2013

-ELEANOR-

i never had a chance to go out with Zayn again,because someone posted a picture of us having dinner while we're at Surrey. and of course fans were questioning us again and Zayn was forbidden to go out for 2 weeks because of our carelessness.

But of course Harry had to clear things up,he told his fans that we're just having a get together because apparently he was a 'potterhead' too and they were (Harry and Ed) playing a prank on us. and some bought it but some are already speculating about it.

They were making a video about how Zeleanor is real and Elounor and Zerrie are not. And all of their theories were correct but I'm not allowed to tell the truth,yet.

"El,show's about to start...we just finished the set" Ashton told me,and I got up and went inside the arena so I can watch them.I can't wait to watch Zayn sing back for you again. Everytime they're singing it,he's always looking at me,serenading me.

I saw Perrie with Gemma and Jade(Little Mix) standing infront...She's here already?Great...now we cannot spend our time because she's here.It's already hard for us when she's not here.It'll be harder now that she's here.

"Hi El!Ashy called you?!" Gemma asked me and I nodded at her,of course she'll tell Ashton to call me.Ashton and Gemma are figuring things out,only me and Lou(Teasdale) knew it because no one can know this,yet. Especially Harry because he's so protective of Gemma.

"so you gave him a nickname?Ashy?" I teased her and she glared at me,telling me that Perrie and Jade are here so I better keep my mouth shut.

"The shows about to start...I'll call the other lads" Gemma said then she ran off,leaving me with Perrie and Jade,this is so awkward and I don't know how to talk to them.

"H-hi Eleanor,how are you?" Jade asked me,she's feeling the awkwardess in the air.

"I'm okay,how about you guyhs?how's the touring?heard that you're gonna be one of Demi's opening act." I answered,both of them smiled...Finally,Gemma's here with the boys(5sos) I'll have some company that I don't have any issues with.

"How's the queen of calderic?" Michael teased.I punched him on his biceps and Luke followed me,he punched the other side and Mikey's groaning in pain.

"Shut up,anyways the queen is here.No need to panic,I will sign autographs later" I answered him and both of them laughed,I noticed that Perrie,Jade,Gemma and Ashton aren't here anymore,maybe they went to the other side where there are chairs that we can sit on,but the rest of us prefer standing and dancing while they're singing some upbeat songs.

I was really pissed that she's here,but I don't want to spoil the night,she'll go home after this Australian tour,she's not going with us in Japan so good for us,and for her too.

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"This is back for you" Harry announced and it started playing,Zayn looked at me and I smiled at him.Luke and Calum were teasing me because they saw what Zayn did.

Baby,you don't have to worry I'll be coming back for you...back for you...back for you woah-oh-oh

Him singing and him pointing in my direction made people around us looked at me.we just danced so they won't notice that it's me Zayn's looking at.

Louis kept on winking at me, Harry kept on throwing water bottles at us.

Before they sang the last song,the 5sos boys left me alone,and went backstage.I saw Gemma waving at me,and they went to where I am.Perrie and Jade are dancing along with the song.Gemma hugged me and we went all crazy and danced along with the song,too.

Harry thanked their opening act,5 seconds of summer...and they played teenage dirtbag and everyone was screaming and they're so happy.

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A/N: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....LISTEN TO HEAVILY BROKEN BY THE VERONICAS WHILE READING THIS. xx

"We'll miss you guys!" Luke cooed and hugged Niall,then everyone else.Zayn dropped Perrie and Jade in their hotel. As rude as I might come out, I'm so happy that they're gone,without us.I mean,they are really nice but when I'm around Perrie,it's so awkward,we may not say it but hell...you can definitely feel it.

"Hey...El,uhm..Zayn wants to talk to you?He's in our room..here's the key card" Harry told me,his face is too serious and I know that something bad might happen,and I hope that it's not what I think right now.

"Okay,I'll be right there" I tried to sound as cool as I can be,I put down the cup that I was drinking before I snatched the key card from Harry's hand...

What's it gonna be now?I think of all the things that I did before this hour,was it because I was dancing with Luke,Michael and Calum earlier?Or the fact that I didn't came with Gemma at the seats?I couldn't think straight right now...

I feel like the walk from the party hall to Harry and Zayn's room was really far,or was it my mind that made me think that it was far?

I knocked,before going inside,which is an unusual thing for me to do,I usually come straight to where he is...

My mind was filled with things that are so impossible to happen at this very moment. The cold air in this room makes my feeling more terrible than it was.Seeing an empty space makes me more nauseous.

Finally,he came out of the room,after I texted him that I'm here at their room.He told me that I'm allowed to come inside his room but I want to talk here,so it'll be easier for me to think.I don't know,I'm fcked now.

"you want to talk about something?" I asked nervously,trying my best to cover it up. He smiled,his smile is not as bright as it was before this.

"y-yeah,I need to break up with you" he said without any blink,without any hesitation and without any emotion.I looked at him,trying to figure what's on his mind,but I can't...I'm not a mind reader but I can see that he's lying,or that's what I thought.

"are you serious?!why?" I finally exploded,crying was never the answer for him,me crying while talking to him will never help us to make up.

"yes,I'm serious...I'm getting married to her,and I don't need an other woman in my life" his words stung...If there is an other woman here,it's Perrie and not me.I want to slap him so bad,but of course,I can't.

"is that what you really want?Fine...I'll give it to you." I tried to sound strong,but my voice was squeaking from all the crying that I'm doing.

Breaking up with me?Getting married to her?I'm the other woman?

Both of us were silent,I'm holding back the tears,he's looking at me,trying to say something.

I was about to go out, but then I realized,I have to say something to him before I finally walk out of this room... "Make sure that it's you who's talking and not the management" I snapped at him,and walked out of the room,and cried as loud as I can.

My heart hurts...so much! I don't know what to do...without him I feel like I'm gonna die,I loved him so much.I gave him everything that I can and I fought for him.

Louis saw me crying outside their room,sitting beside the door,bawling like there's no tomorrow...He hugged me,I felt the need to cry more.I hate it when someone cares for me,it means I'm broken.

I'm broken and the only one who can fix this is him...but he left me.He's getting 'married' and he doesn't want me in his life...Apparently,I'm the other woman.

"It hurts so much!" the screeching sound that I'm producing made me weaker,Louis hugged me tighter,just in time,Harry went out of their room.He ran to where we are,and asked what happened to me.

I want to hurt myself,I want to die...If that's the only way I can get my boyfriend back. If I have to beg for him to go back to me,I will do it.I'm desperately inlove with him.

I feel like my whole world fell apart. I feel like I'm all alone,out in the cold greedy world.

The only question that I have in mind is that....Did he really loved me like he said he was?Or was it one of those jokes that can hurt a person?