The Other Side of Me

Chapter 14

-ELEANOR-

Harry and Louis kept on convincing me to listen to their new album...Midnight Memories but I don't have much time to fool around right now because I'm keeping up with most of my major subjects.

"Please?Just listen to it.I'm sure you'll love it..." Louis told me,while eating my meal for tonight.The three of them (Harry,Louis and Niall) went to Manchester to visit me and to convince me on listening to their music.

"Fine!What's the best song that you made that is in this album?" I asked them. "Best Song Ever,of course" Niall's been hanging out with Louis that he adapted his sassiness. I gave him a middle finger and they both laughed.

"I suggest you listen to You and I...that's my favorite" Harry said to me,he gave me his phone and I played that 'You and I'

I figured it out,I figured it out from black and white..seconds and hours,maybe they had to take some time.

I can't understand what they meant by that.

It's nonsense,but the tune is really really mellow.

You and I

We don't wanna be like them

We can make it till the end

Nothing can come between

You and I

Not even the Gods above can

Separate the two of us

No nothing can come between

You and I

I remember Zayn...he's always telling me that Nothing can come between us...Not even the gods above can separate us. I looked at them... They're all looking at me,with sadness on their face... "He wrote this for me?am I right?" I asked them and all of them nodded.

"He loves you so much El,he just had to do it.You know what?He's a wreck just like you are.I don't want to see you two like this.You're both our friends..But there's nothing we can do,but to comfort you two" Harry said to me,Niall patting my back.

I'm thankful that they're still here,they chose to stay with me...

"I want to be alone for now,guys..." I told them,and they all nodded.They said their goodbyes and left me again.I felt alone...But I told them that I want to.I feel empty on the inside.

I listened to You and I again.I downloaded it all so I can listen to it.

I miss him so much it hurts. There's a picture of us taped on my wall, it was a picture of us when we went out for a walk early in the morning... It was cold,I had to borrow one of his jackets.

"Look,it's snowing!We better walk outside!I always love the snow!" I told Zayn,we were cuddling inside my mother's house. She left us this evening to go to an important meeting in Brazil.

"What do you love more?the snow or me?" he asked,I laughed at him and kissed him. Of course it will always be him....We both got up,and put on some thick jackets so we can keep ourselves warm when we go outside the house.

Everything was covered in snow,Everthing is white and I love what I'm seeing right now.I was daydreaming with all the snow when suddenly,Zayn threw a snowball at me.

He was hiding behind my car,shaping up another snow...I also did the same and threw it at him.His smile makes me warm,makes my stress go away.

A snowball fight early in the morning was never a good idea,but we're crazy in love so we did very silly things and we enjoyed everything.

"I love you so much" he whispered,made my heart melt. I smiled before throwing one big snowball at him and it landed right on his face. I laid on the ground full of snow, making an angel.

"I love you too!" I screamed,and he teased me and scared me,I might cause an avalanche because I screamed.

I went upstairs again,to bring my phone outside so we can take pictures.It was our first time in a snow.

Everything was a candid shot,everything was good.Zayn's smile made the picture look a hundred times better.His hug made me forget the snow that's falling,the cold that's around us.Everything was better.

"Can I kiss you while you take the picture?" he asked and I nodded,I smiled like a 5 year old girl infront of her christmas gift on a christmas morning.

I bet that he's having fun,with Perrie.Maybe they're trying to works things out.

I smiled to myself,fooling myself,actually.

'We'll do everything together El,we'll get a tattoo together,we'll go to Cobo together...Everything...we'll do everything together' that's what he always say to me before we go to sleep. We always plan things for our future,while he's holding my hand...playing with it.

But I think it's time to let go of things that will never happen,everything was just a promise that is meant to be broken. It was about time to let go of my feelings for him because he clearly let go of everything.He let everything fall apart...Even our friendship.I never felt so empty. I never felt so incomplete.

I closed my eyes...and there he is again...Appearing inside my mind.Smiling,making kissy faces,fooling around with me.I find it hard to sleep when he appears on my mind.

I have to sleep,at least for half a day,I need to sleep because I haven't had enough sleep for a week since our break up.I always think of him,it made everything harder for me.He always appear in my dream.

In my dream,he's still inlove with me,he's still fighting for us....In my dream,I'm his girl...not the other woman,I'm his priority and not her 'fiance' everyone knew.

In my dream,I'm not Louis' girlfriend but Zayn's...we love each other and we can never let go of each other...

Maybe dreams are better than reality,dreams can't hurt....But dreams are meant for sleeping.But I would love to be in that dream.Where everything is right and everything is in place.How I want it to be.

I love you,and if you want me to let you go,I'd be happy to do it...Because if you really love a person,you'll let him go.

 Well you only need the light when it's burning low,only mis the sun when it starts to snow...Only know you love her when you let her go...

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low,only hate the road when you're missing homw,only know you love her when you let her go...

And you let her go..