The Other Side of Me

Chapter 18

-ELEANOR-

I feel bad for shouting at Louis.he's done nothing but be kind to me.But here I am,snapping at people who doesn't even deserve it.

I was hiding in a pile of pillow,hoping Louis will come back.and hoping that Zayn's already gone,and I hope I made the right choice.

I heard that the door opened,I immediately rose.

It wasn't Louis. "What are you doing here?I told Louis to send you out of my house!Where's Louis?" I yelled at Zayn.he's looking down,he suddenly kneeled infront of me...crying.

"I'm so sorry...I left you when I shouldn't have baby.I realized how much I love you.I'm incomplete without you El.I swear,I don't want what happened back then.I didn't mean everything what I said.They just made me break up with you" he confessed,still crying.

My heart softened as I heard his confession. but I've had enough of this,all I want is to be free from all of it,I can't live a life.

"I love you so much,I'm not leaving you again" he declared.I'm not facing him,and I don't want to.I don't want to see him like that.It makes me want to grab him and kiss him,but I can't.I want to show him how difficult our situation is.

"Say something,baby" he cooed. I turned to face him. "Get out before I start calling the police." I said to him,he was shocked.I never acted that way.I was a little shocked,too. If only Louis was here. Everything will be much easier.

"I don't care,call the police.I'm more than willing to spend a night in jail,if that's what it takes for you to come back to me" he stated,I can't think of a comeback because I was so stunned right now.

"what do you want me to do?to just forget about everything?do you think if I let myself forgive you,that fucking tattoo of yours will be gone?No.Zayn,it's not that easy. You've hurt me too much. You made me realize how stupid I am for sticking up with you" I told him. I want to take him back, I really do.

It's not that easy,I want him to make an effort,and this is not enough. We've been through this so many times,and I'm getting sick and tired of it.

He's only taking and not giving anything...I don't want him to get used to that.

"come with me,please?" he asked. I nodded,if that's the only way to make him stop what he's doing.He smiled with a tear on his cheek. He still looked perfect,I sent him downstairs so I can prep myself up.

My eyes were swollen,and I look like I haven't had a bath in 2 weeks.

I laughed at my image,Louis' right,I look horrendous...I rummaged through my closet to find an appropriate clothing for me to wear in this kind of weather. It's cold outside.

After an hour or so,I was done prepping,I went downstairs,Zayn was still there...I told him that I was done and we can go now.

He opened the car door for me,and I thanked him for the kind gesture.

Just our luck,Justin Bieber's song was playing..

It's supposed to be some give and take, I know

But you're only taking and not given any more

So what do I do? 'Cause I still love you

You're the only one who can save me, whoa, whoa, whoa

We looked at each other before we decided to just turn the radio off.and instead of listening to the radio,he played his own track...

"Uh...have you listened to our new album?" he asked me,I can't help but to laugh at him,it's been a month since the day they released their new album. "Of course I did,already purchased it" I said. showing him my phone. He smiled and sighed in relief.