The Other Side of Me

Chapter 21

-ELEANOR-

"Sorry if you had to see me burst out earlier" Jay told me as she was wiping up the clean dishes that we'll use later.

"It's okay,Louis' been very loose lately,and I'm sorry if you had to put up with him,but it's his birthday and he's bummed" I told her,helping her on what she's doing. She smiled at me. "D'you know what?I'm actually afraid of telling Louis that I'm pregnant again" after she said that,she looked away.

I turned to face her,shock was obviously shown on my face,a mixture of happiness and of course,I know Louis will be thrilled,and it's a great birthday present for him. "I'll help you,it's a blessing Jay,so you don't need to worry about it.I'm so happy for you!" I cried as well as her,we hugged each other just in time,Louis came in and looked at us weirdly.

"Why are you two hugging?" he asks,as he fiddled their fridge.I looked at Jay and I signalled her not to say anything. "It's a girl thing,you will never understand" I winked at him. He pretended to be seduced by my wink,I laughed at his goofiness.

I wonder why I never fell inlove with Louis,I mean he has the most perfect eyes,he's just too perfect.He looks like Leonardo Dicaprio,he's really a gentleman,why didn't I noticed this before? "Earth to El.I'm talking to you" he suddenly woke me up and took me back to reality.

He's so selfless,it's supposed to be his day today,I don't even know how to greet him,I totally forgot with all the haste that I've had...and because of what happened earlier,I forgot my birthday gift for Louis,it's not that big,but I hope he'll appreciate it.

I shook my head,phew.What's happening to me?I really need to sleep.

"Are you okay?Do you want to rest?" he asks,his accent is like a riverfow and well,I can't understand it,still.

"I'm fine,it's almost time so...I'm gonna rest after we eat.don't worry about me" I rest assured him.I hope he'll buy this lie that I'm doing. I'm so bad at lying...I just looked down for him not to notice me.

To be honest,my feet hurts,my head is pounding and I'm fucking sleepy.But I don't want to be rude,and I haven't had a proper Christmas celebration for years,I always spend it with my dog,Pepper while waiting for my account to be fuelled with money so I can buy christmas gifts for me,using their money.

At least I'll have someone beside me,it's sad that it's not Zayn,I thought we'd spend our holidays this year,but then things got a bit blurry...I'm glad someone's there to catch me...to stay with me in times of trouble.

Why am I thinking about those kinds of things anyways?

"Mum,I'm taking El upstairs,she needs to rest" he said,dragging me with him on his way to his room. "Lou!I told you,I'm fine!Let me go!" I spoke as he drags me.

When we reached his room,he lets go of me,I massaged my wrist,the one that he held. "What the hell?!" I shouted as he make the bed for me. "You need to rest!" he answered back. still arranging the bed,fluffing up the pillows.

"Oh my god!Louis!I can decide for myself,and I've decided to go downstairs,and eat with YOUR family!" I argued with him.I observed him as he was still keeping himself busy.

"you're tired,you need to sleep.I'll talk to you tomorrow" he declared,as he was about to open the door,I held the door back. "I'm not tired,I'm fine!Mind your own business.will you?!" I snapped at him.While he looked at me in shock,I made my way out,and sat beside Jay who's telling christmas stories to her children.

I smiled at her,hiding the fact that Louis practically harrassed me.I bruise like a peach so for sure,tomorrow,there will be a visible bruise on my wrist.

I pulled down my jumper,to hide my wrist,just then Louis marched his way dwon,he's frowning,looking at me like he wants to kill me.I'm scared of him right now. This is the first time I've seen Louis act like this.

"Oh,it's almost midnight!Let's gather around the table" Jay announced,all of us clapped except Louis.

Jay noticed that his son changed moods,she asked me what happened,I just shrugged,careful not to say something stupid.

I latched my arm around Louis,he did the same,but he never looked at me.Why's he acting like this?I better talk to him after this.

It's weird to celebrate christmas at midnight,they're the only family that waits for the clock to strike 12 and they began celebrating it. When we heard the clock, we all hugged each other. I almost teared up because nobody made me feel like this.Not even my mum.

I've never had a real family,all I had was a mother who leaves me with an awful babysitter,and a father who thinks he can make me happy by sending me loads of money on my account.I've never been in a real home,I've never felt that I'm home.

Seeing them all happy,made me really sad.I wish I had a chance to celebrate christmas with them again,after they got divorced,all they care about was their business.

"come 'ere poppet,join us!" Jay said to me,pulling me in for the group hug.

I thanked them for letting me stay with them.They even had a present for me,it made me tear up because they're treating me like I'm their daughter...

I remember what happened earlier,Trisha yelled at me,Zayn defending me,Perrie's family suddenly popped in there,Zayn letting me leave there alone.It's all blurry right now.I excused myself,I want them to have a time for themselves as a family.

I forgot to check my phone,I almost forgot that I charged it.I went there immediately and checked if Zayn had any messages for me.

El,wer r u rn?i'm gettn worried

RN?what's RN?

beb i'm right here outside ur house,open the door for me pls?

are u there or nt? i've been here for an hour. pls come out now.

i texted harry he said he's nt with u? wer r u?

i can't call louis,are u with him? pls tell me u are. pls call me back. love u xx

shit. I should've checked this earlier....Zayn did came after me.I'm so fcked up right now.I called him as soon as I can.

He's not answering me,and I'm worried.what if he's drunk right now?O my god. I can't believe this. "Louis!" I yelled,he immediately went upstairs and asked what's happening. "Zayn went to our house...he came after me!what should I do?!" I frantically asked.

"just rest right now,alright?We'll leave Doncaster as soon as possible,I'll tell Zayn to go Harry's,we'll meet him there.Okay?" he said to me,I nodded and he lets me go to sleep.

I'm tired,but I can't go to sleep.What should I do?

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