The Other Side of Me

Chapter 28

-ELEANOR-

        "El!please slow down!There are lots of people here,you might get hurt!" Gemma's words were so full of meaning.She tried to run after me,but I was too fast.I want to talk to Zayn first,I want to get things back the way they were.

        Then there I was,standing behind Sophia,Liam's girlfriend,just waiting for them to come out of their dressing room. "Soph!Is Zayn there?" I can't wait any longer,I really wanted to talk to him. It's been 5 months,I just wasted 5 months for nothing.

        "Yes they''re inside.Still getting ready" she answered me back politely,I was about to walk past her. "Where are you going?Are you going inside their dressing room?" she suddenly asked,her eyes were looking in different directions.Pulling me back beside her

        "What?I have to talk to Zayn.I have to talk to them!" I reasoned out,Gemma's nowhere near me.Probably in the other boys' room. "boys!down here!" someone shouted.Suddenly,Ashton shoved me,trying to hide me.Something's going on,and I really am curious. "what the hell?!Ash!"  I shouted,fixing my hair.It was Gemma who yelled. "What's going on you guys!?" I asked them,my voice was raising.All of them looked at the ground.including Sophia.

       "What's going on?Is there something you want to tell me?" I asked again.Nobody answered.Might as well go inside and see it for myself.

        I opened the boys' dressing room.Liam was the first one who I saw.His face tells me that he's indeed surprised,but not a good one. "El.you're b-back,what are you doing?" he asked me,hiding something from the back.

        "Where's Zayn? I need to talk to him" I told him trying to get a peek on what's behind him. He nervously chuckled,I smiled at him with a glare. "I don't think that's a good idea" he answered, everybody's been telling me that what I'm doing right now is not a good idea. What the hell's wrong with these people?

        "I don't care if this is not a good idea!I want to see him" I  muttered,he just gave me an apologetic look. He hugged me before I proceeded to the other side of the room.Niall and Harry saw me,they're sharing the same expression.Both shocked and somewhat scared.Then I get past Louis,I noticed that he lost a lot of weight.What happened to him?

        "Where's Zayn?" I asked... He didn't let out a single word,he ignored me.and went to Harry and Niall's place.I have to ask him later,but first I have to talk to Zayn.I have to tell him that I still love him and my love for him will never change.

        I was standing behind the opened door.there he was standing...and smiling? He's smiling. Why is he smiling? and he's talking to someone? I opened the door, a wee bit wider than it was before. And there she was, Perrie, handing a face towel at him. and I was standing here. Looking at them, trying to hold back my tears. What happened in that five months?

        "Zayn" I said,but more like a gasp. both of them looked at me, Perrie's posing at me and Zayn's obviously shocked at me.Maybe even asking himself what am I doing in here? "you've been gone...for like five months" he said.

        "I'm not asking for it,and I'm aware that I've been like not in myself for five months.But what are you doing with her?!" I replied,telling him that. As if Perrie's not here. She startled when she heard my reply to Zayn.

        "She was here for me when you abandoned me" he answered back. My face turned from a smiling one to a frowning one.

        "What?" I tried to sound as nice as I can be.

        "She never left my side El,you left me just when I needed you most.Did you know that mum myocardial infarction? *huffs* Of course not, you left me!" he raised his voice, Louis must've heard it, because he was there behind me, the second Zayn yelled.

        "what's going on,man?" he asked Zayn,looking at me then back at Zayn. "I'm just so done,I'm done!" he snapped at me. Walked out with Perrie holding his hand. "Please tell me this is just a joke,please tell me you're just pranking me.Please" I cried, I unconciously hugged him. I thought I was over this crying thing. I though I've had enough of this. But I clearly wasn't.

        "Sorry,El" he said. Hugging me back. I deserve this do I?

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-ZAYN-

        It's wrong to give up to that one person you love, but it's worse if you use someone else to forget about her. And I'm the worst. Perrie already believed that I'm falling for her, that I  want to push this wedding that is not even worth it. 

        But my time is too valuable to be wasting time on someone who's not consistent with what they want. But you know? Once you have feelings for someone it will always be there, you may not like them but you still care for them. But in my case, I still love her. I hate the way I left her just like that.

        She's like a spider,seeing a spider isn't the biggest problem, it's when it disappears. Being with her isn't my main problem, but just a problem for the other people around us. But when she disappeared, I feel like it's the worst scenario that happened to me. Five months, she abandoned me.

        But maybe not having a closure is a closure. 

        "Are you okay?" Perrie asked,giving me a water bottle. "Yeah,I guess" I replied. I feel so stupid, because I wanted to see her but I've been so good for the past months. Perrie gave all her attention to me. "Pez?" I suddenly asked her after I thought of things.

        "Yeah?" she anwered,smiling at me. "why are you doing this to me?" I shoot. Her face changed,turning it into a serious one,same as what I have.

        "I don't know if this is the right time to tell you this,but I like you...I've been hiding this since forever" she confessed. "What?" maybe this is not the right time to know about things, "Y-yeah,I liked you. It's so stupid, because for you, that public dates that we've been doing...to you that means nothing,but to me... that means everything"

        I don't understand her,but I am trying to. "I don't if I should tell you this. but it's been eating me alive... I convined our management to make you propose to me" she confessed again.

        "What?!Why would you that?!" I said,raising my voice at her.

        "Because I like you!Wait--scratch that. I love you.and I'm sorry if I did" she answered,biting her nails. "You know how much I love El,right?!" stating what she already knew. "I know!That's why it's so wrong,but I'm inlove with you. And I want to feel that you love me too."

        "And you also convinced the management to make me get a tattoo of you on my body?!" Now everything's making sense. I just have to talk to El. I shouldn't have done that...Fck!it all makes sense to me now. I should've listened to Eleanor.

        Speaking of... "Sophia!" I shouted,leaving Perrie behind. "Sophia!" I shouted once again. The staffs around me are telling me that we only have 2 minutes before the show starts. "Sophia!Fuck.Stop walking!" I finally got her attention. "Yeah?" she seemed so cool about my expression.

        "Eleanor!Where is El?" I asked,everyone's trying to pull me.

        "She's gonna go back to England,but she gave me this letter before she left,she was. . .crying." she said,not giving me the envelope. "I'll give it to you after the show,j-just...go" she added before she departed.

        Paddy and Preston carried me,they're realy pissed off right now,but not like Harry... His eyebrows were furrowed,and he's not talking. He's not doing the usual thing that he does before the show starts.

        "Don't mess this up,just because you're having some troubles,This is important for Niall.He's been dreaming of this since he was 10,please don't ruin this" he mumbled,when he passed my microphone.