Maybe I am insane (dan howell x reader)

Chapter 31. Golden days

"Oh don't you wonder when the light began to fade?"
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"We don't have time for this." Dan spoke under his breath. He played it off as if he didn't care, in all honestly he probably didn't. But I knew he has been friends with Phil longer then imaginable, he wouldn't do this to him or Chris.

He grabbed my arm and forced me up, he put me into his arms and started hugging me. I didn't know why he would think it would help. In all honest it just made me feel worse. I pushed him off of me.

"No! Fuck you, if you're not going to do anything about this, then I am." I spoke pushing him off me one final time as I ran away.

He tried to grab my arm but I was to fast for him, all I could hear was him calling my name in an angered tone as I ran back inside. I ran into the crowd hoping it would be too difficult to find me.

And I just kept running.

Eventually I reached an exit, but my mind paused for a second. A second in which felt like hours. I would be making one of the biggest decisions of my life if I walked out and never came back. I'd be leaving everything. Dan, Phil, Chris, I would be leaving all the memories. Then again, for once in my life I would be free. I wouldn't have to worry about constantly being on the run.

My thoughts were interrupted as I heard Dan calling my name in a concerning tone. I looked back, feeling my stomach turn as I knew this decision would change, everything. Yet I opened the door, and ran without looking back. But I wasn't leaving forever, at least, not yet. I need to make sure Phil and Chris are safe. Then ill make my decision.

I ran to Dans car, knowing he'd be idiotic enough to leave the extra key in. I remember him telling me he did that in case there was ever an emergency were we needed to drive away as soon as possible. So we wouldn't waste time having to search for keys. I opened the door and quickly got in, slamming it as I sat down then began to start the engine. My eyes traveled as I heard Dans voice yelling. Christ, was he mad. But I didn't let it stop me. I drove off, quickly. The burning rubber coming from the wheels as Dans voice yelling my name became less and less vivid.

And I was off, the only thing I cared about right now was making sure Chris and Phil were okay...

I felt some weird sensation in me, like a rush that kept going. My adrenaline kicking in as I sped up. Eventually after around thirty minutes of me speeding past red lights and almost crashing numerous times. I eventually got to the flat in which everyone was staying at. Hoping that Chris and Phil would still be there. I opened my door and ran out the car as I entered the building. My hand anxiously shaking as I reach for my gun that I packed, I was staying cautious at all times.

I slowly walked through the hall, seeing the door to our room broken down. The wood sticking out showing that it was kicked to the point of destruction. No one was there. I didn't hear a sound. Yet I still kept my guard and held my gun close.

I walked in, my eyes traveling the room seeing the place was a complete wreck. A table was flipped over, it seemed as if they used it to push against the door. I continued making small analyzations until I heard a sound in which followed my foot steps. My head turned around quickly as I began to panic, it's probably one of Felix's "crew" I assumed. I ran over to the kitchen and hid behind the wall, holding my gun next to me.

I closed my eyes as if I was preying, feeling sweat starting to form. My eyes then opened themselves up forcibly as I felt someone tug my arm, pulling me into their grip. I was pulled into them to were I couldn't see who they were. My back against their stomach with their arms around me tightly. I tried to put my gun to their head but failed as their hand pushed mine down causing me to drop the gun.

I heard a small chuckle escape there lips, but not just any chuckle, the sick twisted one I'm used to hearing. "Still not fast enough..." Dan spoke in a whisper with a smirk plastered on his face. I held my breath feeling chills run through me. We stood there for seconds in which felt like hours. "You thought I wouldn't catch up to you?" He continued, causing fear to grow within me.

He quickly spun me around causing me to face him, our eyes staring into each other's. "Now you don't have anything to say?" He questioned in a fake tone of innocents. My hands were shaking, I grew anxious with Dans sudden tone. His voice sounding all too sweet for the twisted things coming out.

"You look scared. Are you scared of me? Do you think I'm gonna hurt you?" He paused as a smirk along with a slight psychotic laugh interrupted him. I looked away, knowing I needed to stand my ground. I'm sick of all these games. Im sick of feeling as if I'm not in control of myself anymore.

I looked back into Dans eyes, daring him. "It wouldn't matter even if I did, once I find Phil and Chris you'll never see me again."  I spoke breathlessly as my voice slightly raised.

"We'll see about that." He spoke bluntly.