My Love- Luke Or Calum

yelling

  "You caused his death Mallory its all because of you!" im currently sitting on My bed getting yelled at by ashton. He is blaming me for lukes death.
I have my radio playing softly in the background.
  "No ash im n-"
  'breaking news on luke hemmings death. He is not dead. He was found walking around the city at midnight last night. He was interviewed and he said he didn't die or fake his death it was his twin brother liam. One the other hand luke hemmings had a identical twin brother who died by his own hand because of a girl named mallory knight. He was said to be in love with this girl and she broke him.'
I turned my radio off and looked at my ass hat of a brother.
  "I wasn't the cauuse of his death because he was dead" i walk outta my room and into the living room and sit down. I do nothing in particular. Looking around my depressing metel head teenage apartment. Im a like a kid stuck in there emo fase. Thats my look and secretly always has been. When i was a little girl since i was born to 12 i was a reall girly girl trying to become who i truly was but my mom never let me. She kept buying girly stuff for me never really letting me. Be me. Now that im old enough to actually be myself i am. Im that punk rock kid or that emo kid or the outcast or the goth kid even the skater kid or the one people called me the most in jr. And all the way to my senior year in high school the depressed loner. I was depressed yes. But it wasnt badly depressed. All my life i now nobody liked me i couldnt express myself. I remeber when it was the last few month of 6th grade i started to cut my wrists and started some drugs and created the p.o.d. gang. Thats when the names took off from there. I distanced myself from people i started wearing dark colors then it turned to black. Then i started wearing chokers and heavy eye line and then black lipstick then it was band shirts and a hoodie to cover my cut up arms. Then i met a guy he changed my life it was after kia. He was like me. We started talking and about maybe a week or to later we got together. He did the most amazing things. He called me beautiful everyday. Told me he loved me every time he got the chance. Always had something carung and loving to say like 'i love you so much i cant explane it' or 'being with you turned my life around im no longer depressed and i see a long and happy future. I cant wait for the day i fall asleep next to you nowing when i wake up your the first face i will see. Because i love you i wanna be able to cuddle you and call you mine. Always and forever'
Then things went down hill. We spent less and less time together. I never saw him and when i did he never cared to acknowledge that i was there. I had worries that he would find someone new. Someone prettier and better than me. He did and it was my best friend katy 'kit kat' as i call her. We where best friends when me and the guy got together even though kit kat was with another guy named Bailey she liked the guy i was with. We got together and she got quiet for about a week and then came around. Then weeks later both got distant. I guess he was seeing kit kat behind my back they never had sex but they where dating while he was dating me. We broke up as soon as kit kat told me. She said and i quote 'im so happy with jake i know it must be hard with the break up he moved on i hope you do' so i asked her wnat she was talking about and she said that jake said we broke up and we didnt yet. So i may have said a few choiced words and back handed the shit outta my poor best friend. She may not of known but its kinda obvious you ask the ex girlfriend if they are still a thing.
  But after that i got depresses again vut worse. Then i graduated high school moved in with ash and was with luke things where good. Till they went down hill. Now i got calum and we are going strong.

"Why dont you just go back to Sydney ashton?"
  "Because mal i needed you because i thought lule died-"
  "Yet you yelled at me saying it was my fault!"
  "Im sorry"
  "Ashton if you dont leave in 5 seconds i will strap you to a chair let a stripper have ber way with you shave your head bald and then cut your dick off after i let the stirpper have a few more rounds on you" he left after that. I guess he doesn't want that to happen. Oh well.
 

One day later

"Hey baby im home" calum walks in and hugs and kisses me very passionately.
  "Hey babe" calum pulls away and looks concerned.
  "What is it babe?"
  "I got news that ashton's plane to Sydney crashed and there was no survivors. Babe im sorry" i start to cry the very lasts words i said to my brother was a threat
  "My last words to my brother where s i will strap you to a chair let a stripper have ber way with you shave your head bald and then cut your dick off after i let the stirpper have a few more rounds on you. He left when my words where a threat not a i love you see you soon"